The Return of the Hunger Games [FALLEN ASHES] Book II

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No.

"Please let me explain!" My mother jumps and touches my arm. I turn to her and back away. "No. I don't want to hear anything! Not from you, not from Gale, not from anybody! You threw your vow to my father in the trash! You lie to me, you both lie to me for 15 years and now, a man who was never ever mentioned, never brought up, is telling me how he's my father!?" I can't handle it, I can't control my furry or my emotions at this point. I look at Kal, and my blood boils even more. "You knew I was your sister!?" I step foward, about to grab Kal, but Gale grabs my arm and stops me. "Let go of me!" I break his arm away from me, and everybody is immediatly on their feet. Especially Kal.

"Don't touch my father!" He yells at me, with this look in his eyes I cant describe.

"Well, tell YOUR father how he will never be apart of my life. I will never accept him as MY father. He will never be worth my spit." I look to Gale, I give him a look of pure disgust. Then I look at my mother, who hasn't stopped crying. I shake my head. "Just," I dont know what to do, what to say. I look to everybody, with facial expressions that I couldn't understand. I look back to my mother. "Just dont even look at me!" I run past her, past my father, past everyone and run up the stairs to my room. I lock myself inside, and let it all burst out of me. The tears, the screams, the pain. My father wasn't my father. Some man who's name I didn't know until today was my father. His blood ran through my viens. No wonder I felt something different about Kal. He was my brother. And Thalia was my sister. It only breaks my heart even more to know that she was my sister, carrying my niece or nephew, and I let her die. My mother cheated on my father. She got pregnant with another mans child. I was that child. I was most likely the biggest regret of her entire life. I felt like the biggest regret in her life. Everytime she'd look at me, she'd think of Gale and that day.

I layed on my bed, crying for an hour. Nobody disturbed me, nobody came up to see how I was. I'd rather nobody bother me right now, because I'd claw their eyes out. I just needed to be alone. Nothing but alone.

*Katniss' POV*

She runs upstairs and I hear the door close.

"Elissa please!" I begin to run upstairs but Peeta grabs my waist and pulls me back down the stairs. I'm struggling to get him off. This can't be happening. "Let go of me!" I'm screaming, I'm begging. He lets go, but doesn't let me get past him to check on Elissa. "Peeta please. I have to go talk to her!!!" I'm trying to get past, but its impossible.

"There's nothing to talk about." He says. I stop and look into hia eyes. They never stopped crying. Just like me.

I never wanted things to end up like this. My daughter didn't even want to look at me. It was a stab in the heart. I turned to Gale. "You had no right!" I yell.

"I had all the right in the world!" He said. "I could be her father, and the only reason I was never there for her was because you wouldn't let me!"

"Because I didn't want you there! I didn't want you to be the father! Whatever happened, was a mistake. I don't regret Elissa, I regret you." My words to him hurt. I could see it in his eyes. I wasn't going to be made the bad guy. But I wasn't trying to be the victim either. We both made a mistake, but Gale was no father to Elissa. Peeta was the only one I loved, Peeta was the only one.I wanted at the end of the day. And he was the one who still stayed by my side after everything went out in the open. My emotions were running, but my hate was increasing. "I hate you!!" I lunged for Gale but Johanna stopped me. "Stop! Stop! Katniss calm down!" Johana is yelling at me and grabbing my arms, making sure I dont.try to harm Gale.

"It's not like I told your son how his mother cheated on you, and that he's not your child!" I yell.

That was the breaking point. Haymitch looked as if he'd had enough. "Everybody stop!" He yells. We all stand still and stay quiet. "Realize how you've just revealed the biggest lie in Elissa's life to her. I believe it was necessary to tell her. But it's not necessary to be arguing over YOUR feelings." Haymitch says. I hate how he's right. "I want to talk to her." I say.

"Well she doesn't want to talk to you. But who you do need to talk to, is all of us." Haymitch says.

I dont want to talk to anybody. Nobody except for Elissa. "Katniss." Says Annie with this sooth voice. "I'm not saying it was right for you to withhold everything from Elissa," She looks around, then back to me. "But I'm sure nobody would know what to do in that position." She says.

"Why don't you get a paternity test? I mean, how much worse could it get?" Johanna asks.

"Very worse." Says Effie, speaking for the first time in a long while.

"I would think, that the people who raised you lying all these years would hurt her the most." Kal says.

I hate the fact that he's right. We all sit there in silence as Peeta calms himself down a bit by making Coffee, and we all sit in silence. I breath and try to settle myself before speaking up. "I don't want things to fall apart." I say. Everybody looks at me.

"They already have." Haymitch says.

"It's not like I can hit a rewind button and fix everything!"

"If you can, then do it." He says.

"Don't be such a smartass Haymitch. We all know what Katniss did was stupid, but its not like you haven't done stupider." Johanna says.

"All I'm trying to understand is, what was the argument all about? What drove you to leave and end up at Gale's door and do what you did!?" Haymitch asks.

Peeta shows up with the tray of coffee's. I look at him and get flashbacks from the fight. The comments, the screaming, the yelling. Peeta sat down and nobody reached for the coffee. I looked back at Haymitch, not knowing how to start the sentence.

"We," I cleared my throat."We had just lost a baby." I said.

My mind raced and I tried hold choke back the feeling of wanting to cry. "And I kept blaming Peeta for it. It was, a horrible accussation and I never wanted it to go any further. But then he said things, I retaliated, and it went to far." I looked down. "I was only 5 months. It was going to be another boy." I look at Annie. "We were going to name him Finnick." She smiled with tears in her eyes. She got up and came up to me to give me a hug. She gave me a gentle kiss on my forhead.

I looked to Haymitch as Annie took her seat. "So I guess the answer is, I was thinking clear. I had just lost a child, fought with my husband, and I needed closure. And I didn't know who to turn too." I say.

I could tell Haymitch didn't want to admit how he was wrong, but I didn't care if he said it or not. I reached for a cup and poured myself a coffee while everybody sat in silence. I was shaking my leg, I was shaking in general. Words could not explain how badly I needed to talk to Elissa. How much it was important for her to hear me out. I looked at Peeta, who was looking at Gale with such heated eyes. "Peeta." I whisper. He looks at me, and.relaxes a bit. I saw how much he wanted to hit Gale. How badly he wants to hurt him. But its not like him, so he doesn't do it. Johanna is the next person to get coffee, and then its Beetee and Annie. The tension is starting to deminish, but something popped into my mind, and I turned my head to Peeta. "That necklace." I say. Everybodys eyes are once again on Peeta and I. "When did you give Elissa that necklace?" I ask.

He doesn't look at me. "I didn't give it to her."

I looked around the room, and the only one who wasn't looking at me was "Johanna?" She met my eye. I was surprised. "Yeah it was me." She says. Typical Johanna.

"You got Elissa a necklace?" I ask.

"I never said I got it for Elissa. I just gave it to her."

I looked back at Peeta. "Why didn't you let me know?"

"I dont know." He turns to me. "Why didn't you let me know how Elissa wasn't my child until 8 months later?"

I keep quiet. And by the looks on everybody's faces, they were going to as well.

Its been about and hour and I stand up. "I have to talk to her." I rush past everybody's protests and arguments. Everybody is telling me to leave her alone, and to stop. But I didn't want to. I ran up the stairs, and opened her door. I searched around, and she wasn't here.

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I know this chapter SUCKS! I've been having family problems, But prepare for the next chapter because I'll make it AMAZING :)