i always have something to write about
my doubts when it comes to progressing,
because there are a lot of questions
running in my mind,
that no matter how many times i make
it as a topic of something,
the number of questions won’t
still decrease.
instead, the more i learn about tomorrows,
the more the fear increases.
i am so afraid of not being able to make it
to my 30’s,
but if i did, then i would probably look back,
read this again,
and laugh and feel embarrassed because
i can no longer remember myself writing
this. i’d laugh at how desperate
i sound like, now that i’m trying to
pen down the current thoughts in my mind.
adult me,
do you still write?
if yes, then that’s very unfortunate.
that only means that you didn’t change,
or you chose not to change.
i bet you’re still a loser.
if no, then that’s sad.
because it’s just so hypocrite, that i’m
talking about loving literature,
but ending up not doing it anymore.
i’m just kidding.
i hope you’re still a poet.
i know that you love being a loser;
that’s what people call others who
don’t like competing for nothing.
losers are those who don’t feed
bad men’s ego, and i’m proud of you
for staying in that lane.
adult me,
wherever your feet took you,
please know that i am always happy
with everything that you’ll do
and choose for yourself.
i trust you more than anyone else,
i know that you know what you deserve.
you don’t stay in places that don’t give
you the warmth that you need.
unless you’re already dead.
you won’t really feel it.
just kidding.
adult me,
i can’t wait to meet you.
but it’ll take time,
for i’ll have to go through a lot of things
before reaching you.
and wherever my feet might take me,
i’ll surely love it. i’ll love the journey.
because i know that it’s a part of you
that you are thanking me for
because i chose that path.
YOU ARE READING
Found This Book Somewhere In The Forest
Poetry"Talk to my soul later midnight, when the moon's at its peak. That's the only way of communication that I know, because my physical lips will stutter if I told you about how I want to tear my human skin apart and go out."
