japanese lover.

Jessica

Words cannot express the love I have for Jessica... and Doritos. As we travel back in time to the point where I met this beautiful being, I'll explain to why she's so fucking awesome. She's on another level than us plebeians, elevated on her throne of steam gift cards and love from every guy she meets. She has an aura around her that attracts the love and affection of everyone near her, it's amazing. Her flowing strands of hair blissfully fall into the perfect place every time. She's amazing, sweet, and a bitch all at the same time. 

"Woah bro, a grill on the internet??????????????" I say as she enters the call, ready to impress.

"The fuck you think this is? I ain't no tranny. Tyga ain't gonna fuck me!" She's mad now, I have failed my senpai.

"Look, I'm sorry. I just didn't know that there were girls on the internet . I thought it was just for porn."

The first interaction was not a pretty one, but she was <3. Just through voice communication I had seen her beauty.

I sent her a friends request hoping she had not fallen through my greasy Doritos fingers. I was heartbroken and I hadn't even talked to her for more than two minutes. I forgot to mention her voice. Her voice was like a warm welcome into a friendship but a cold bitterness was in the background. I could tell she was in need for real love. But what was real love to me? I was just an edgy 14 year old gamer who can't know real love. Until I met her.

Through various heart emojis and Fetty Wap lyrics, I had  lured her into my metaphorical arms. And that's what I wanted. I could now see she was damaged. A little broken kitten with the facade of a bitch. She had used her bitterness to protect herself from more damage. A shame, really. A hard, cold exterior and an inviting, welcoming interior. Someone, some FUCKING FUCKBOY had gotten to her, hurt her, and left. I will find this fuckboy and make him face the consequences of hurting my babe.

We started talking with "I love you" ending with every sentence. She could tell I was no fuckboy and I think she liked that. 

"My name's Sebastian babe <3" I said, bravely.

"That's a cute name. But you know what's cuter? Sebby! <3"

"Your name's Jessica? That's cute, but you know what's cuter? Jessi <3"

Already making cute names for each other. This was going fast. I liked it. Time spent with her was even better than slumping over in my chair with a bag of Doritos by my side and pulling an all-nighter. Now I wanted to switch out chair with a bed and my bag of Doritos with her. I mean... the Doritos could stay, but she had to be there. Netflix and chill was a new found love for me, but I couldn't do it by myself. N-no. I needed her. 

By this point in time I had never seen her. I couldn't resist anymore. I needed to see her. In real life or otherwise. Since I hadn't been planning any road trips to New York anytime soon, I told her to put on her webcam. She agreed. I'm telling you, I haven't been more speechless in my life when she turned on the webcam. Her beauty was like a blinding light, but I didn't look away from this light. From this, I had learned she was Asian, Japanese to be exact. Kawaii as they say, kawaii. But she wasn't my senpai anymore.

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