Turn The Page: Suffer in Silence

TTP2-SIS

TRUST:My Biggest Fear

Fears i don't really know what I'm a afraid of I was never afraid of suicide or death when my breath had that henny taste 240 days later my fears are different when I'm angry or annoyed I just gotta relax and maintain my poise but then when I'm angry till the point I cry it's really because I don't want me or you to have to die over my fear of not trusting you I'm not afraid of guns or knives or anything violent however let something happen when I get fired after 50 hour weeks of payed fakeness now I gotta act fake cuz I think your fake how about I lay down and collect unemployment for a few months and I'll still come back just to take your spot at the top snatch off that red vest only cuz you wanna keep testing me I came from a meeting and this crack head said keep coming back I'm like why I know why cuz im a always need to hear the truth from a sober mind I go back to work like why am I here why ya keep moving me I know why cuz my higher power told me if they rushing you they don't really know you so show em your speed oh okay so my speed is over a buck fifty no cars in my lane so when im sprinting with a 500 lbs pallet jack like Ludacris would say get the fuck outta my way ok now im a demon over speeding now I'm down to ride like paul walkers last keep fucking with me i promise the sky gonna be your last flight straight to heaven i called God and asked if i can use his keys to open the gate he said dint worry im a handle it I have his fate in my hands he can be a demon but all I know is demons its like soon as i clock in im chillin with my demons but im so lowkey even they dont know when im coming im at the bus stop creepin and its over night so I'm a catch you at your station when im sleeping nigga why you look bugged tf out I know your drinking but I ain't a snitch you will only see me at my station hittin this rate while I'm singing I'm looking at the cutter like should i serve him with guns or butter thats that baby boy shit okay baby boys oh ya got the drop on me well now im a tdr dropping all the pallets on your dome like yes nigga run to safety for a whole week or use upt you in the red that's tot running from break room to break room now you dead im still here pushing 50 rule of power crush your enemy completely I don't trust you so how could I ever love you ok thanks nasty neph plat life and 182 fuck the love I hear you bro you ain't a thug that's that hard Hittin love don't give a fuck if you thug cuz I'm a winner came from being a born sinner im a Pisces swimmer but which fish you want free willy the dolphin or I can be jaws as a shark after dark doesn't matter if im sitting or parked I trust no one and that is my biggest fear im living a clean life the only thing I'm using napkins for to clean your blood up them wipe eyes from my tears.

Where is Peace?

the only piece I know was that piece I seen on his bed I'm like should I kill myself this Hennessy is too much but I'm good out the hood but they keep bringing me back my next move gon be the best move niggas always wanna test my moves I ain't preaching so just know when I'm silent I'm that demon you gon see me somewhere creepin maybe my peace isnt in CT i created my own chaos how tf am i sober how do I do it im like ok no more music or poetry i gotta hide myself if i dont make amends to my baby girl I'll be back by myself but idk who to believe or what to believe but now I see no more words now I have to see my ears are closed cuz now I know I gotta give up something idk if it's the smoke but this the weakest that I ever felt I'm on one knee praying to GOD no more false sayings only action and satisfaction i apologize if my actions look like I was cappin no more demons only peace was it really ptsd was it nah it's just me this what happens when you tryna live the truth so low-keyy baby girl by my side like the 315 queen she is I gotta take better care of myself if she wants to see me live my full potential she the truth im the truth we're just living proof tryna end all the drama all this trauma I'm really an angry scared non alcoholic but I already made this promise maybe it's an AA promise looking at women thinkin they my mommy I'm embarrassed but it's ok that's how I rise straight from the bottom will i be ok? truth is the peace is inside of me only speak on positivity I can't solve every problem cuz I'm human if they shooting just hope and pray they miss I love my lady she the classiest but knows exactly when to be a bitch I mean it's part of being real explaining how I feel peace is staying loyal I got gold on tryna rap up the heat in a aluminum foil that's that sand soil less blunts but I'll take the oil I'm only half spoiled can't speak on the other half those were other traps that was that my heart to cold for it I'm 33 I'm getting too old for this fastrak gon be my only track until the math is added but dramas everywhere that's my mama everywhere daddy told me fuck em I'm like bet Thursday night the action my babe thinks I'm cappin im lowkey laughing but my heart too big to give other women that satisfaction you sexy af mah but get that mami I meant to say get that money off white that's my honey it's still sunny don't be funny cuz I'm laughing at my own failure I ain't the savior so idk who can save you I didn't make you find a way to handle all your problems wifey over everything but for all the hoes im using condoms she knows too much she can stain me faster than these talking niggas so comfortable with being uncomfortable until it's comfort I'm about come for everything even if I gotta be a mute shout out to mute he the truth without the speaking the truth so they can reach for the truth I live or die for proof the sounds it just sounds they want me to angry but that's strange being so passionate the world thinks I'm a have a fit my weekend already planned so let me have it all the hate turns into being me and working dont even speak unless its something good these headphones just keep me doing good the test is if I'm spending money nah I'm just making barely it's only scary when the sun is out I love the darkness let there be light but which light ya showed me all your colors I know the ones to follow my head still gone sleepy hollow my baby want it cold I'm bold but there's no time to fold but when they talking that's just them the story they told the truth always comes in time as long as I ain't talking everything will be fine I'm only nice guy the work is when it starts right I ain't arguing or fighting but I'm always typing would you love to read would you love to see this energy we'll meet me at the floor tell me where it's at headphones on ship dock till my dick is out see that's just a sound for all of ya'll to know suffering in silence only time is against me play my mind against me I'll speak when I'm ready hold that scanner steady my face numb freddy its only hot till 3am my fingers are the pen when the screen moves that's when they move or try to watch it they tryna read a book that's written like a thousand times a thousand lines you sniffed it thats when you draw the line but for my heavy sippers make sure you dime and tip her i aint doing that but dont ever lose track of the past it never gets better only some day one day at a time last day can be forever im only quiet tryna figure out how to move better so speak to me so i can speak if your perfect tell me it ain't me so blame just dont talk dont name me if you say the phrase its cuz you said it if you look at me its cuz you read it i must be the fetish when the whip game nice no game its a low maine I could stay low ayo bro maine i can turn an island to the block wait nigga stop these headphones keep me from telling so go ahead sell your story to me i am the corniest 315 get that horny ghost away from me it's loyalty these hoes can toy with me but cuz I'm playing God I'm quiet they just think it's odd it's who I am but I can move into a bigger pod