Field |short story [4 chaps]

01

As I lay down in the grass bleeding I wonder, was it worth it? Was it worth going outside just for a glimpse of the view. My family inside, do they even know? Do they know their daughter is bleeding out in the field right now?

It's rainy, it's raining and it's absorbing all of my blood into the soil. As I watch it absorb my life source like a lion who hasn't been fed in days the harsh bullets of the rain shoot at me.

I'm not doing to die. I won't die like this.

Lia, Lia, lia, lia, lia please.

Lia do you know I'm bleeding right now? Lia will you save me? Lia where are you?

Are you with someone else right now? Lia do you still love me?

Lia would you love me if I left you forever?

It wasn't my choice. I'm not supposed to be here, I've gone through so much to stay. I cant die like this. This is not what I want.

Thunder. A thunder strike into my body every time I try to even touch the bullet. The wound is deep. I don't like this, I don't like how I can feel my insides. I'm not supposed to be laying here.

I haven't even explored many things of life. I'm not sure if I even know who I am yet. I just want to live. I'm not going to die, I can't.

Lia please I'm scared.

Lia all I want is you.

Just for you to hold me, please. Where are you? Are you at the club with your friends again?

As you stumble tipsy, drunk, I'm bleeding. Your probably pressed against another woman right now.
I want to get up, I want to stay alive. I want to go to you. I want to barge in the club and kiss you in front of everyone.

I want to brag to the world that you are the one I love. But only in moments like these that I have the guts to do it. Why? I wonder why.

Why don't I have to emotions to express my love to the whole world about you until moments like these. Is it because I'm scared? Am I scared of the judgement so badly I only have confidence in times like this.

I need medicine. I need Lia, medicine, Lia who what do I need. You are my medicine Lia. I need my medicine. I need the medicine that makes me feel better. Where's my medicine?

I need help, someone needs to heal me. I need help. I'm scared. My vision is becoming blurry. Are you outside of the pub now?

Are you spilling your guts out of your mouth while mine bleed where it's not supposed too. Does your stomach feel likes it's been shot because the amount of liquor while the bullets deep into my guts.