Alpha King Jeon Jungkook || TZUKOOK

CHAPTER 42

"Are... are you saying... that my husband...Are you saying that Jungkook isn't alive anymore?"

I almost screamed as I grabbed Jin from the collar of his shirt. I had already lost my mind and everything. I could barely breathe because of the heavy suffocation in my chest with much pressure. Jin just saying that Jungkook got shot with silver bullets and he died? No... no... I don't want to believe it... how can I believe something like this? And how can I even endure if something like that has happened for real? I was waiting for him to come, I was just literally counting the days to see him again but what did I just gain as a result?

"Why... Why didn't you look for him? I don't believe that he's gone... how could he? No way! Look for him! Go back and look for him! I want him back... please...do something!"

The pain of losing him was already spreading through my veins as if it were a strong yet dreadful drug that could ruin my whole life. My lips quivered and my eyes were suppressed by tears. How can he leave like that without even having a look at his daughter? How can he even be so careless?

He said that he would protect himself and come back to me. He promised me but did he just break that bloody promise that he gave me? What kind of craze is this? No...I don't want to believe... he will be back just like he promised. I don't want to think about anything else but his return! My wolf was already crying inside of me. She was whimpering and sobbing harder, making me feel numb. I refused to believe what Jin just uttered. Why would I believe it? Why do I have to believe what he's saying?

They've been out for six days and now they are back but they are telling me that they lost my husband which I can't bring myself to believe. What were they doing when Jungkook got shot? What were they doing when he fell from the cliff? And why are they even back without looking for him? What kind of nonsense I'm hearing? Please... I don't want something like that to happen. Jungkook and I were sharing a good relationship, it was a perfect one and now we have two children. I gave birth to his daughter but isn't he coming? Isn't he coming to see how beautiful she looks?

"Who... who shot him?" I looked into Jin's eyes with a question. My hands were still clutching his shirt and I didn't even want to let go because I was blaming all these people who went with him. They didn't protect their Alpha properly, that's why something like that happened to Jungkook.

"Vampires. Some vampires are together with rogues." My heart shattered into tiny pieces and I don't know if I could ever gather all these pieces and fix my heart back.

He was shot... with silver bullets. Silver is the enemy of all werewolves. A drop of silver could lead a werewolf to death and how would someone survive if they were shot with two silver bullets? I let go of Jin's shirt and took a few steps back. My heart was in a throbbing pain. I always thought I was lucky to have a man like Jungkook. No one was so good to me like he was but what about now? I suddenly lost him and now I feel I am such an unlucky woman who's good for nothing. What am I going to do now? What should I do now? How can I just continue my life without him? What am I going to say to Ayaan and our daughter when they ask about their daddy? My daughter won't ask me anything but Ayaan... I covered my face with both my hands and began to sob. All those sobbings came from my heart and I didn't know what to do about this. How can I take care of all these things without him?

"I... I asked him not to go... but he still went... why couldn't you guys just... keep him safe... he's a father to two children... and what am I going to tell them now? My daughter hasn't even seen her father." I spoke through the most broken voice.

I still can't bring myself to believe that it was the last day that I saw him. If he's gone, I will never be able to see him again. Even if I see him again, it will be from my dreams. The helplessness and pain rocked inside of me making my head start to spin. I felt the pain in my chest along with a weakened heartbeat, not only that but my head was also aching.

"Luna, are you alright?" Nayeon held me. Her voice was also shaking. How can I be alright after hearing such painful news? How can I even be alright when I just got to know that my husband was not alive anymore? I couldn't even see him. I saw him six days ago and how can I just accept that it was the last day I saw him?

"Please, let me take you to the room..." I didn't resist her help. I forced myself to take heavy breaths so the suffocation in my chest would at least fade away even for a little bit but nothing helped it. Tears dripped down my face without stopping and all I could think about was him.

The way he was smiling, the way he held me gently while I was pregnant, the way he treated me gently and lovingly all the time. I couldn't help but think about all the things he did for me. I couldn't even stop myself from thinking although it was painful. I entered the room and raised my head gazing at Ayaan and my daughter. They both are sleeping soundly and peacefully.

How can I just raise them without their father now? How am I going to explain to Ayaan that his daddy won't be coming back to us again? Ayaan lived with Jungkook before I came to his life so how would he ever endure the loss of his daddy that he loved the most and spent all his time with? The more I thought about it the more I felt that I was going insane and numb.

Jungkook had lost his parents when he was so small and now Ayaan had also lost his daddy how can I just endure this? I can't even think about this and I have no idea what to do or how to move forward with our life. I slowly dragged myself towards the bed and got onto it, having no intention of waking them up. I lay on the bed and stared at my kids while my mind and screaming in agony for losing him.

"Nayeon... you can leave... I need to be alone..." Feeling Nayeon's stare on me I muttered. I knew that she didn't leave the room after helping me. I just want to be alone with my children and that's all. I heard Nayeon walking out and closing the door of the room. I closed my eyes and remained silent. Is he not alive anymore? We've only been together for a year but did I lose him before we could spend our future with each other? Let me sleep... Just forget about this problem for a moment because I know that I have to live with it for the rest of my life. I will have to cry every day and think about him.

I woke up with emptiness. I don't know how long I slept and I didn't care either. As soon as I woke up, my little girl began to cry informing me that she was hungry. I slowly took her to my arms and began to feed her but Ayaan was still sleeping. He's good at sleeping and won't wake up no matter what kind of noises his surroundings make. While my girl was drinking milk, I stared at her.

Staring at her red eyes reminded me nothing but about her daddy who I would never be able to see again. Jungkook's words appeared in my head, he wanted to name her Yuna. Just like he wanted, she has the same hair as mine so let me call her Yuna because Jungkook isn't coming back to name her. I have accepted the fact already but my brain and heart were not letting me do so.

They don't want to believe that he's dead until they see his body. But I know that it isn't easy to find his body after he fell from a cliff. With so many painful thoughts and defeated feelings in my chest, I closed my eyes and leaned against the headboard of the bed thinking about the only thing that I could think at this moment. It's so painful to believe that my children just lost their father at such a young age. And it's terrible to feel that I lost my husband this early. We were together only for a year. I wanted him to be there for me all the time and I wanted to see him before I gave birth to her but nothing happened according to my wish. Once again, I have lost everything.

No... I can't say that I have lost everything, I have these two children who carry the blood of Jungkook. I have two children who he gave me but how can I just endure this loss? I never thought that I would lose him, not this soon! A sob escaped from me and I immediately covered my mouth. I didn't want to make any sound.

"Mommy..."

After a while, Ayaan woke up. He looked at me rubbing his little eyes. When he stopped rubbing his eyes and looked at me with this pair of emerald eyes, I felt as if my heart was tearing apart. He looked so much like Jungkook and how am I going to endure this pain when I see this little boy who reminds me of Jungkook all the time? I smiled at him and caressed his cheek. He moved closer to me and looked at his sister with happy eyes. He loves her already.

"Your sister's name is Yuna. Do you like it?" I asked him. He looked at me and then again looked at her. He thought about it for a while and then gave me a big and bright smile with a nod. Yuna... it's a beautiful name and I'm glad Jungkook came up with that name for her. She looked like both him and me.

To be Continued...