why do I have to suffer from the things that I don't want to experience
my mind is strong
but my heart is weak.
Im selfish for wanting you back in my life, like a movie that had a movie plot twist.
I arrive at the thought that I dont want to love another except him
Im so selfish for wanting it to be like that.
my interest
my eyes
my hope
is gone.
it's like Im living for my purpose, not because I wanted to live.
My life just leave me here, stuck and lonely.
my only reason to feel this is the expectations that I have, assuming situation that it will last and hope that I keep holding on.
Today is my birthday and the only wish I have is to have him beside me
.
.
.
.
but the wish didn't granted.
If you're tired, rest with me
if you want a friend,I am a friend
if you want a lover, I am your lover
until now I can't believe that we're so okay to the point that I assumed no one or circumstances will separate us. But Indeed I expected more of you.
(I forgot that Im just expecting things.)
I realize and pray that I want someone who will fight,love,stay,contented and contented with the love and effort that I can give for now.
The unfair part is that someone I want is you.
I still pray to God, That If I had a chance to love again. I still want u to be my lover. My last lover.
but for now, let me stay away from you. Let me heal for the pain, expectation, and hope that making me sad .
im loving you and your presence. And I will never think that it will come to end this early.
if the time will grant us again. I will give my love and effort for you.
but if not, Then I guess that's a goodbye for the love that I want to give to you.
for you to feel that I really appreciated and loves you
Thinking about you despite of what happened between the two of us.
— sachii
