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2AM Testimonials

1:41 am 9/21/2024

Pretentious

Every time I see you
I still have a crush
Every time you talk
It still gives me a rush
Just because you don't like me
Doesn't mean that I feel nothing
It's weird to me cause crushes never come this easily
However it stays with the one who doesn't want me.
We have so much in common
And yet not much at all
Your way to pretentious
And I care about is fall
When will the weather change
I'm waiting on the cold
For feelings to shift
For someone to hold
And still a man with the same name I leave and lead him on.
He Won't except no for an answer
But I wouldn't care if he were gone.
He's on the other line and yet I hang up on my end
To listen to you talk
See your smile
But to what end?
It will never happen
So why do I stay
Foolishly smiling and melting
Holding onto every last word you say
The way your snarky wit
Never fails to brighten my day
I don't care if it's unrequited
My crush will fade one day
And until then I mesh  into
the background of your play
The ensemble you might interact with
While like a jester I entertain
for the simple moment you look my way
Your Simple smile
Dripping with charisma
Behind his glasses 
Still I know
I'm not the object of his chustzpah
(I really needed a rhyme) but still I'm searching for all reason
Beyond all logic
I still smile
Like a foolish jest around him. 
To pieces, all apart, I hide my ever blushing cheeks
For there's no logical reason
To still have such a crush
On a guy who doesn't like me.

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3:00am 9/29/2024
My childhood
Was Rocketman

When your life is a stage,
And the audience is always watching,
Everyday, moment, sigh, breath, must be part of the show, in the spotlight.
But when do you take the glasses off?
And realize that "your very expensive painting

Is upside down"

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1:35am 10/1/2024

Gone

A wagon with a broken wheel
Three chapters that went missing
Why does all of my greatest work stray far from the meeting
My very best program saved for zoom comps
My very best dress wear it live,  I did not
And any passion coming your way spare is ripped out of me like pulled on hair
Why must I grieve and cry over my losses
Those high end micropeices that make up when I was flawless 
My favorite cousins gone to flight
My favorite cake, memories of it bite
And favorite shows are canceled too young.
The prized is snatched when we finially have fun
So I guess my work is never done
Until mediocre is great. And bad is ok
Because all of my lucky Pennie's keep getting stolen anyways.

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10pm
Damn
Schools hard
And I can't stop thinking about things I should disregard
Velvet emerald has a Ruby
Pretentious hipster doesn't mean much to me
Movies making others scream
Get me to a new daydream
Situations getting harder
Lead him on won't go much farther

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2/05 am

I still feel brainwashed
Still like the pretentious
Camouflage
School is hard
Haha that's what she said
My friends are sloshed
Is this self Sabotage