My slowly shrinking sanity

Dearest diary,

I fear I am coming close to losing my sanity. It was all him, you see. He did this. He hurt my heart and mind beyond repair, making him the causer of my now inevitable insanity. I cannot go a day without thinking of him. It's like my mentality does not matter when it comes to my subconscious. I should have listened to Troy. I shouldn't have fallen for him. All it has done for me was show me how unstable I am and increase it by such a size that I have incredibly longing thoughts towards suicide. I wasn't like this before him. It is all his fault. He made me fall, but he only caught me for a second before I was hitting the floor, because he had loosened his grip and practically thrown me down. I'm not eating healthy, I'm not caring about school, I am, though, trying to recollect my former self. How I used to behave before this i am not sure, but I'm positive that with extensive research I will find the core of my old self and once again, be happy, though its near impossible I will try my damnedest to do so. So, diary, I will go back to how it all started, just for you.

Sincerely, your loyal writer,

Chelsie Autumn