Blessing | Taekook

13. Blessing

Remember, I asked you what is Blessing? So, let me tell you what is Blessing for me. You might have guessed by now, as I told that blessing is something that is lacking in your life and in my acceptance and happiness of bearing a child was lacking. Can you blame me? By birth when you know, your type can conceive and one day suddenly, a doctor tells you, you can't. Only the person who have been told this knows what I am talking about.

Now, ofcourse, it is not something that makes you complete, but society fits it like that in your brain. Everyone expect from you to carry one day and give their sons or families a new born to who can lead their progeny. When you can't, they make you think like you are an usless trash and nothing more than that. I have been facing this from almost four years now. Constant questions, people's faces, and their devotion to point fingers at me. I wouldn't mind them a bit, by husband, he was no different.

I would go insane one day for sure, if Taehyung didn't come in my life. I guess Haerin was right when she said, he will care for me. He did care for me. More than he was supposed to. So, slowly he started to fill in all my lackings. He told me, I have no lackings to begin with. He provided me acceptance, the way I am. He gave me his unconditional love, without asking me to be only his.

When he came to my life, I was experiencing constant migraines, shivering in the night, terrible mood swings and I would get angry on even small things. Slowly, he restored me by being gentle and patient with me. So, tell me wasn't it a reason for me to fall in love. Not to mention, he was the reason for which I am able to see this successful day. Today was official success part of my collection launch. We launched yesterday and it was sold out in hours. I was at the mansion with Taehyung and we shouted on the top of my lungs, he said, "You did it your grace.... Everything is sold out....."

"I didn't.... We did it Manager Kim.....You , I and our team......", I wanted to hug him but I couldn't we were having my project manager and her team over, for discussing some things. However, I didn't miss the same urge in his eyes as he looked at me so proudly.

"In tomorrow's event, many investors would be interested in buying shares of our company.....", my project manager said.

"That's great.... I am so looking forward for expanding it.... Manager Kim will ser about it.....", I said looking at him. I do designing so I leave business and shares on him. He is the best, his every advice led me here. Past four months we have worked hard and most of the time it was him.

We were almost finished with it, when he got a call that Jimin was not well from many days. I told him it's okay, he can go and see his friend. I washed up and left to bed early because I was feeling sleepy. However, again like past often nights I woke up before sunrise due to suffocating feeling and threw up everything that I had last night. Not to mention, I want strawberries with everything now. Strawberry syrup, jam, fruit, marmalade and even I brought body lotion that smells of strawberries.

That morning I was so worried about all of it, then suddenly from a far away corner of my mind a voice came and I shivered, "N-no it can't be....." I said. I ran to the bathroom, opening the last drawer and with shaking hands I took out a test kit. That two minutes of my life were the longest after I took the test, I paced back and forth nervously trying not to look at it. When the timer went off on my phone and I closed my eyes sighed deeply, "It's probably food poisoning.....", I mumbled because how a certified infertile person can be pregnant right?

I almost screamed when I saw two lines on it, "T-this is broken.....", I was sure that it was broken. I almost forgot about the symptoms and cravings.