You said you fell for the girl you saw when we met..
But what if I'm not her anymore.. what if I never was?
I dress up and play different versions of myself a lot..
What if you love a version that doesn't exist anymore?
You also said that you only wanted me.. no one else..
But you fell for 2 others.. while still holding on to me.
First it was Jane.. and now it's Ava.
If Ava leaves, will there be another?
It hurts to hear you say "I love you" to anyone but me..
It hurts so much that I can barely breathe most times!
I'm sorry if it sounds like I'm jealous or possessive or clingy..
I know I'm not perfect.. but for just a little while,
I thought that I was enough for you..
I know it'd hurt you tremendously if I did this to you..
You'd probably get mad at me and leave me because:
"What's mine, is mine and I don't like sharing!"
But since I'm an actor and played many different mes, I don't know which one is the real me..
The only thing that matters is that every piece of me wants you to be happy..
And just thinking that I fucked up so badly that you found "options".. really fucking hurts!
And since you have options.. do you even need me?
Do you even want me anymore? Am I still useful?
I know that I can't be your only priority.. I know there are things that are more important than I am;
But do I still have value to you.. or am I worthless?
I want to be more than enough.. I'm sorry if I'm not..
Whatever is driving you away.. tell me so I can fix it.
YOU ARE READING
The Hidden Darkness
PoesiaI honestly don't know what to put here.. I decided to write a book, and so I wrote these poems. I know that they aren't very good, but at least I tried.. right?? 😅😅😅
