When I found out I could skip school so the whole family could celebrate your birthday I was happy I wanted to escape school for just one day that moment I thought I wouldn't cry like I usually do but when Feliz Cumplianos started playing it was like some kind of Damm inside of me started to overflow I knew I needed to cry but I couldn't cry as much as I did on your funeral, tomorrows Homecoming but now I don't think I wanna go. Emilia said that I might not go because tomorrow is also another Quinceañera but I'll probably have to go with them I don't really like going to quince's outside of our family I feel really shitty right now now only because I miss you but because I gave into my addictions again even though I said I wouldn't, me requerdo cuando estaba un niño todo El tiempo me decias que me amas y soy tú prieto chulo you'd always ask me if I had a girlfriend yet and that I should only focus on my studies I miss the experiences we made in our old house "Hi jj ¿como estas mi prieto chulo, estabas portando bien?" "Hi Grandma I'm good, yeah I was" "Bien porque sí portas mal voy poneder pow pow!" My grandmother gestures her hands clapping. I knew she wouldn't hit me because I was one of her favorite grandchildren. A lot of things changed when you died, it took us awhile to hangout as a family without an excuse but my nino Ignacio is still withdrawn from Visiting us I've really wanted to visit him but we can't really do that because he has people renting rooms.
