I'm so scared to be a person. I try so hard to come to terms with things I can't control, but it's becoming hard again. I feel invisible when I'm around people, I don't even feel real. it feels like I'll never accept myself for who I am, and I don't know how to handle that. I'm tired, and schools barely even started. I'm overwhelmed, I'm hungry for love, and I have no idea how to aid it.
and the worst part I think is that nobody else does either. they can think they do, it's easier for them to think my problems are easy to fix. like they're not deeply rooted into my very being, apart of my soul. I want to puke, to rid all of it from me.
I want to feel the rain against my disgusting face, that I know everyone judges. I know beauty is a false phenomenon, and I can see through lies better than anyone else. I care.
I'll be who I wanna be one day. maybe not today, or tomorrow. but one day, I'll finally be happy.
of course I'm acting different, there is something wrong with me.
I'm asking for help. help me. help me fix myself, please. I mean it, I need help.
I hate everyone.
