Friends?

Part title

DAN'S POV

*opens iMessage*

Hey Phil?
I really hope he answers.

Yes Dan? Is something wrong?

Nope. Of course not. I'm fine. Everything's okay!
I want to say yes, but I don't want to make him deal with my problems.

I don't believe that. Dan, what is wrong?

Nothing.
He knows me too well. I should just give in. He always wants to make me happy, that's what makes him different. I just love him for it. But he could never know.

Dan please?

Fine. It's just been a bad day.
If I say this he'll want to know more. I shouldn't tell him more.

Okay. Tell me more.

I'd rather just leave it at that.
I knew it. But it's too much to just throw all my problems on him.

Dan why don't you trust me? I'm here.

I do trust you.
He really isn't giving up.

Then tell me.

It's been one thing after another. I've just screwed up everything today. I cracked my new phone, lost my camera's SD card, and I accidentally left my keys to the apartment on the tube.
This isn't too much, is it? I don't want to tell him about everything. But he is my best friend. My only friend for that matter. I should tell him. Maybe not all of it, but at least what's on my mind today.

Stop saying that you screwed things up. Everyone makes mistakes.

I've made so many mistakes. I've done worse than that.
He doesn't get it. He is just so perfect. I wish I was that beautiful and amazing.

Don't be so hard on yourself.

But I'm just so worthless and awful. I don't even have a point to living.
Why does he want me to be so happy? Its not like he is affected by me. Not like I am affected by him.

Dan stop that! Just stop it, okay?!

Well I deserve it. I can't do anything right.
No. This isn't what I wanted to happen. He's getting angry. Come on Dan! You can't even talk to your best friend without making them feel awful.

STOP! IM DONE WITH YOU ACTING USELESS! YOU ARENT! IM SO OVER YOU PRETENDING TO BE LIKE THAT!

It's not acting. I've always felt like this. I haven't told you about it much because I knew this would happen. I don't just break and lose objects, I do that with friends too. I knew I would upset you. I didn't mean to and I'm sorry.
Crap crap crap crap crap crap crap. I shouldn't have said that.

DONT BE SORRY! JUST STOP!

It's all I can say, Phil! I don't know what else to be but mad! And I've already taken care of that. I wouldn't ever take out my anger on you. I care about you too much. It would only make you more mad at me.
All I wanted was for him to understand. But he doesn't. He hasn't gone through anything like this. This is new to his happy-go-lucky adorable self.

I'm not mad. You can share your anger with me. It's okay.

I'm just angry at myself. I'm awful and I can't do anything right. I've never done anything good or worthwhile for anyone.
I should say the truth. Maybe he will get it.

THIS IS WHAT MAKES ME ANGRY! You don't realize how amazing you are! You are just so blind!

I guess that's another thing wrong with me.
Did he just call me amazing?

DAN CUT IT OUT NOW. IF YOU DONT STOP THEN IM LEAVING. YOU WONT LISTEN.

I'm so sorry Phil. I didn't mean to make you be like that. Please don't leave.
Please don't leave. I need you. I want you. I wish I could just say that. But he definitely doesn't feel the same. He literally threatened to leave me. Well what was I expecting?

Like what? What do you mean?

You're texting in all caps and using explanation points. You must be mad.
I wish he would stop playing with me. He still doesn't understand that I'm the worst person ever and I should just stay at home all day and never leave. At least then I won't hurt anyone.

This isn't anger. This is love. I care about you, Dan. I'm trying to make you realize how perfect you are. You just won't listen to me.

I'm listening. I'm just not getting what you're saying. It's hard to understand how you feel.
He cares? IM PERFECT? DOES HE THINK IM PERFECT?

I've tried to make it obvious that I care so much about you.

I didn't get the impression you cared when you threatened to leave whilst typing to me in all caps during an argument.
I'm confused now. He must have just said that to make me happy. It worked for a second.

I'm sorry. I wasn't trying to be harsh. I haven't had the best day myself.

I'm sorry, Phil.
What? This is too much. He doesn't deserve to have any bad days! I want to help but it's only going to make me more depressed. I should just stop. I need to take my mind off of this and watch some Buffy.

Me too.

I'll text you later?
Okay. Just don't make it seem like I'm trying to get rid of him.

You have to go?

Yeah. Its late.
This was the biggest lie. It's 11:34 but we both know I rarely sleep that early. Another thing wrong with me.

Okay. I'll text you soon. Xx

I wonder what those xx's are meant for? I wish it meant he really wanted to kiss me. I wouldn't mind that.

///AN///
I'm having fun writing in this texting format kind of thing. Let me know what you think. I doubt its original but I didn't get it from anyone. Hope you guys like it! BYE FOR NOW!