Wake Me Up(an Ed Sheeran fan fiction)

Chapter Twenty-Six

I sat at the table, looking back and forth between Ed and his dad. They were having a stare down. A moment later, a shorter woman with dark hair, peered out from behind Ed's dad. "Edward!" She said. She pushed Ed's dad out of the way and ran over to him. She wrapped her thin arms around him. "I've missed you!"

Ed hugged the woman back, not taking his eyes off his father. They glared at each other. I looked down at my drawing pad. Okay so Ed was right about not getting along with his dad... I looked back at the three people. The woman let go of Ed and looked up at him. Then she glanced at me.

"Hello! Who might you be?" She asked. I sat up straight.

"I'm Reggie." I said. "Ed's girlfriend." The words felt odd on my tongue. Ed's girlfriend Reggie... The woman grinned.

"I'm Ed's mother, Imogen." She said. She glanced at Ed's dad. "Ahem." She took a step backwards and stood next to Ed's dad. "John." She said. "John!" She elbowed him and he grunted.

"What?" He asked, looking at Imogen. She nodded towards me. He looked at me. "Oh. I'm John. Who are you?"

"Reggie. Ed's girlfriend." I said. John nodded and looked at Ed.

"So. How long you staying this time?" John asked Ed. Ed narrowed his eyes.

"Well, Dad, just don't expect us to be here too long." He snapped. "We'll leave after Christmas." Both men just glared at each other. I gulped. I was starting to get very uncomfortable in this situation.

It reminded me of Mom. The whole time she was with us, the first seven years of my life, Mom showed nothing but intense feelings. The feelings in that room at that moment. Craig and I believed that it was because Dad begged for her to give birth to us and that she didn't really want us or love us. Dad and Fitz tried to convince us otherwise. But I knew, deep down, that it was the truth. The intensity in the room made me so uncomfortable, I felt myself tearing up.

Suddenly, I stood up and grabbed my drawing pad. "I'm just gonna go..." I mumbled, walking past Ed and John and leaving the kitchen. Grandma was in the living room reading a book.

"Those men fighting?" She asked as I sat down on one end of the sofa.

"Yeah." I muttered. A moment later, Imogen walked into the room. She sat down on the opposite end near Grandma and remained silent. We could barely hear John and Ed speaking in the kitchen. I wasn't feeling right, being in a house full of tension. It wasn't right. Not for me.

This was exactly what Sage or any of Mom or Dad's friends would do when Mom and Dad fought. They would sit quietly or read. Basically, block them out. I couldn't do that. I couldn't block out the memories.

"I..." I slowly stood up again and walked towards the door. "I'm just gonna go get some air." I said. Nobody said anything to me. So I opened the door and went outside.

Closing the door behind me, I walked across the yard and right over to the barn. By the time I got inside of it, I realized that there was a spine tingling cold wind surrounding me. Then I realized I didn't put on my coat. Or a sweatshirt. I sighed and shivered. Whatever. I'll only be out here for a little while.

"Funny. You think everything will be okay if you just ignore it?" That voice in my headed taunted. Really? "Yes, really. You think it'll be all hunky dory when you go back? It won't." How do you- "It won't. It'll be just as bad. Maybe even worse. And they'll just ignore you and keep at it." But... "You know I'm right. You know you can't handle this. They're just like your mother. They don't care about you." Yes they do... I felt the tears running down my cheeks as I leaned against the barn wall.

"Reggie!" Ed's voice called out a moment later. I sat down on the ground and wrapped my arms around myself, shivering.

"Romeo, Romeo. Where for art thou Romeo? Your little pretend prince coming to save the day again?" Stay away... Please... I begged the voice in my mind. Ed too... Leave me be... But a moment later, Ed peered into the barn door. He was wearing his jacket and a scarf. "Reggie!" He exclaimed.

"Look at that fake concern. He wants you to freeze." The voice chuckled.

"Go away..." I mumbled, hiding my face from Ed as he reached down to me. His hand didn't touch me.

"Baby, what's wrong?" He asked.

"Scream at him! Let him know your torture! Let him know your pain!" The voice shouted.

"No..." I whispered. "I can't..."

"Reggie...?" Ed whispered back, touching my arm.

"I can't..." I said, letting go of the tears. They ran down my face and I sobbed. "I don't want to hurt him!" I cried. Ed's hand let go of my arm.

"Hurt who?" Ed asked.

"Run, Worthless. Run away from it." The voice said. I felt my body move and I stood up. Ed was crouched next to me.

"Reggie?" He asked, starting to stand up. "Are you-"

"Go! Run, now, Worthless!" The voice yelled. "Take your useless self and run away from everything!" It drowned out Ed's voice. Okay. I'll go.

"Re-" Ed started to say my name again and stand up, but I shoved him to the ground and ran out the barn door, leaving my drawing pad laying in the straw. "Reggie!" Ed called after me. But I didn't hear him. Nor did I stop running. "Reggie come back!" Ed hollered.

"Weak. Worthless. Slut. Bitch. Stupid. Fat. Ugly. Whore. Pussy. Asshole. Useless." The voice chanted the words as if they were a song. And I ran at the beat of it. My heart pumping. My feet slamming into the ground. I couldn't even feel the cold anymore. All I could feel was the pain. The pain flowing through me.

"You can end it now, Worthless. It can all be over." I heard the voice as clear as my very own. Then I realized it was my own. I was the one who said it. More of a reason to keep going. Don't stop. Don't ever stop.

Hey guys! That was chapter twenty-six! I know that voice can get quite annoying but it knows exactly when to get to Reggie. And I also enjoy writing "running" scenes. So yeah. AND ALSO WOO 250 READS!!! Anyways, vote, comment, and follow if you want!
-Liz