A Life Of A Fourteen Year Old Girl

little girl

MERHABAAA UZUN ZAMANDAN SONRA YENI BIR KITAP ILE GELDIMM.
Bu bir otobiyografi yazisidir,kendi hayatimdan esinlenip yazdigim bir kitap.
ilginizi cektiyse okuyabilirsiniz.
hepinizi cok seviyorum ve bu ana kadar bana destek oldugunuz icin cok tesekkur ederim💗
(Simdilik planima gore 10 bolum olarak bitirecegim)

ENGLISH TRANSLATION!

HELLO! AFTER A LONG TIME I HAVE COME UP WITH A NEW BOOK.
this is a story about my own life,Inspired by my own life.
If you are interested in my story you can read it.
I love you all so much and thank you for supporting my work till now and always💗
(Right now I think the story will end in 10 parts)

2023..

The blood that was dripping down my wrists meant meaningful to me,like my life depends on it.
For other people I was just a stupid,teenage girl that was a subject for another stupid rumor.

2020..

-physical appearance

I thought that I was in a state of my life where I was really happy, except the fact that people were really cruel and mean towards me and I constantly got bullied.
I never understood what I did wrong.
I was always nice to people.
I always thought about why my physical appearance affected people so much that I was constantly getting bullied about it.

I was different.I wasn't skinny but I had a friend that had a special place in my heart,and she still has a special place in my heart.
She loved me even though I was really ugly,she loved me because of who I was.she listened to me and she enjoyed talking to me.
Just for you to know I never forgot you and I never will.
I still miss you so much and I really love you.

-lessons

My lessons were pretty good.
I understood everything pretty fast except maths.
I thought that I was special in something.
I thought that my family saw me as a thing.
I never understood why people didn't just accept me as I was.
This is the least that I can do can't you just accept me like this?
Maybe I am ugly but that doesn't matter..right?

"Stupid"

"Nothing will happen from you"

I still remember it dad.I tried forgetting it but I couldn't.

-affection

People, people and people.
Bla,bla.
Why were people like this?
Why are they so judgmental and cruel?
All I wanted was love.
I was only asking for affection that I nearly never got from my own father.
I never forgot how cruel you were towards me.
You were a childhood crush,I loved you.
We both know that it was because of my looks right.
You could just let me go and we could leave it in the past even though it would be hurtful for me.
But the only thing that I clearly know right now is that I fucking hate you.