History (Nathan Gardner) - Complete

Dreaming of You

"Sweetheart.. it's gonna be ok.."

"I'm in so much pain.." I groan loud, squeezing my mom's hand.. "He can't possibly come get.. he's not ready.."

"He must be ready Katie.. you're having this baby.."

"You need to call Nathan.."

"Nathan can't come.. you know that.." my mom tells me and I look at her all confused.. why can't he come?? He's missing the birth of his son! Something he promised he would never do!

"What? Why??" I groan again in pain, clutching at my stomach.. "Oh fuck this hurts so much!"

"Come on.. we'll get you to hospital.." my mom comforts me.. "It'll be ok.."

"Please try and call Nathan.. he needs to be here.." I try again but my mom doesn't listen.. why can't he see the birth of his son?! I don't understand. It doesn't make sense.

We make it to hospital, in my mom's car.. she didn't want to wait for an ambulance for me.. which again I don't understand why.. until I barely make it to the room.. and my beautiful baby boy arrives safe and sound.. he's being placed carefully in my arms wrapped up in a blanket..

"Oh my god.."

"Here's your son.." the nurse tells me.. "He's 5.9lbs.. a little small because he's arrived early than expected but he's healthy..."

"He's so small.. I'm scared I'm gonna hurt him.."

"You're not going to hurt him sweetheart don't worry.." my mom reassures me.. "He's precious isn't he.."

"He's perfect.." I smile looking at my son.. but I feel so guilty that Nathan isn't here.. "He's just like his dad.."

"No.. I see more of his grandad.." my mom tried to tell me, why is she being like this whenever I mention Nathan's name?

"Can you please give me my phone so I can call Nathan?"

"Sweetheart.. Nathan left remember? He's with Megan.." my mom tells me.. "I don't know why you're so cut up about him being here when he turned his back on you.."

"Excuse me?" I look at her in shock.. my eyes full of tears.. "Nathan.. he can't.. I need him here.. I need him.." I shout out.. my tears falling onto my cheek..

And that's when I suddenly wake up.. I breath a sigh of relief when I realise it was just a dream.. my arm reaches over the bed to where he would normally be.. but he's not there.. my heart races.. in panic so I quickly climb out of bed..

"Nathan?" I call out but the house is silent.. "I quickly search the rooms but I guess he's already left for the day.. I pull out my phone to call him I see he's already sent me a text..

Hey, you were asleep when I left so thought I'd send you a message.. I know you're angry with me.. and I promise I'll make it up to you.. I love you Katie.. please remember that..

Ps.. I've made you some lunch it's in the fridge, I love you again.. :-)

I swear my heart skips a beat as I read his message.. he can be the cutest man ever at times.. and it's my little reminder as to one of these reasons I love him. Although, his messages reminds me that we'll be ok.. I still can't stop thinking of my dream.. I had our baby boy in my arms and he was so perfect.. just a few more weeks to go and that will be my reality.. I could have done without worrying about Nathan won't be there though..

I have a lot of time to think it over now that I'm not working, it's driving me a little insane but I begin to sort some things out for the nursery.. if he's going to be here soon.. everything needs to be perfect.. my dream has made me a little worried that it could happen at any time..