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One Shot. [Working with Tom]

This is it. The day i had been dreading the most had finally arrived.

I was never nervous on movie sets, besides this was my fourth movie but today I just couldn't keep it together. Today I was shooting a love scene...with Thomas Hiddleston.

I'm about 80% sure that the reason of this behavior is just that I am starstruck. I really admire him and I never thought I'd have the chance to work with him yet here I am. When my agent sent me the script there was no love scene. However, things changed along the way and the director decided to include it.

I got the scene about 7 days ago and when I read it I genuinely freaked out. Don't get me wrong it's not a nasty scene; it's in fact beautiful and I trust the director will want it done elegantly. It fits the rest of the story perfectly but I just can't see myself touching and kissing Tom. Actually I can't see me being kissed and touched by him. He's an inspiration.

It's acting though, it's not real but he's so good in everything he does that I fear I'll screw it up and he'll dislike me or think I'm a terrible actress. God, I haven't even slept well for the last week.

I got in my trailer at 6AM to start the day and left my things there to go have breakfast but I checked my schedule and realized things had changed. I wasn't shooting the scene until 3PM. That was such a relief, it meant I'd have some mental preparation time; I'd get to relax and try to keep it cool.

I went to the crafty service and got a fruit salad and coffee and decided to head back to my trailer since it was kinda crowded there and I couldn't deal with that at the moment.

As I was eating my salad and enjoying the silence I heard a knock on the door.

-¡Hello!-Exclaimed Tom as I opened the door.

Great... I was freaking out already and it was 6:40AM.

-Hi. Good morning, Tom.

-Good morning, Darling –He said coming in and kissing my cheek.- I just discovered I am free until 3 so I thought I could hang out here with you for a while if you don't mind. I brought these cookies, they're delicious.

Tom was such a sweetheart. The whole time I've been working here he's been nothing but nice and we get along really well. I respect him a lot not because he's a few years older but because he's such a smart and educated man who also happens to be incredible at what he does.

Unfortunately, today, my nervousness was getting to me and I was shaky and clumsy.

-Sure, Tom. Thanks.

We sat down on my little table for two and he placed the box of cookies at the center.

-These are amazing. I've eaten like 5 already.- He said taking a bite out of one.

-¿Can we take that much food back to our trailers?

-Oh no, darling. But they didn't see me. I think I left like 10 for the rest of the cast and crew- He let out a laugh.

I smiled. I was so awkward right now. I couldn't help it. My emotions were taking over me.

-¿Are you okay, love?

-I'm a little tired I guess.

-Oh. I'm so sorry. ¿Do you want me to go so you can nap?

-No, it's ok. I can't sleep anyway.

-¿Why is that?

The thing about Tom was that he cared for every single person in this movie. He always listened and looked concerned at whatever you decided to tell him about.