Forbidden Lessons

48

48

Ian’s POV

The last twenty – four hours had been terrible for me. From me having to tell Jenny what we really are, to finding Sophia burning in the sun, to me killing Freya. The realm was In chaos. That was certain. And that wasn’t what I needed at the moment.

All I wanted was to try and help Sophia adjust to this new lifestyle but right now I had to leave her alone to settle matters with Jacob and talk to Mike.

I could tell that she was having a very hard time adjusting to her new life as a vampire and I couldn’t blame her. She was turned barely twenty four hours of her finding out that people like me were in existence. She didn’t even understand what Vampires were like, and then Freya changed her into one.

I’m guessing part of the fault was from me. I was the one who mixed my blood with the tea I had given her to drink but at the same time I was grateful I did that because if I didn’t then she’d be dead by now. Really dead. Gone. I wouldn’t see her again. I wouldn’t get to tell her that I was sorry for putting her in danger. And that was unacceptable. I couldn’t bear to think that.

I wished she wasn’t pushing Jenny away though. I could tell Jenny was weirded out by the whole thing but she just wanted to have her best friend by her side. Sophia on the other hand…I really couldn’t tell what was going on with her because she had managed to get perfect at hiding her emotions from her face. Fuck. The whole thing was seriously fucked up and I didn’t even know what to do or where to start from.

There was a knock on my door and I got up from my desk, waking to it. When I opened the door, Jacob was standing there with a scowl on his face. He has been angry at me since and I couldn’t really tell why but I knew it had to do with me trusting Jenny and basically about the whole issue in general. Plus I suspected he was angry with me for just leaving him without notice and leaving the fate of the realm in his hands. Even though he might not admit it, be was angry at me for that.

“What is it?” I asked flatly. I still had a lot to talk to him about, including apologizing for being a dick all those months ago but that wasn’t something I could do right now. I had a lot I was thinking of. I had a lot going on on my mind and I needed to sort those out first to think clearly. I acted rashly whenever I was angry or stressed out anyways.

Like killing Freya. I shouldn’t have done that but I did it anyways.

“Mike is at outside. And he has been calling you to inform you that he’s here, but I wonder what you’ve been thinking of that you didn’t even realize that your best friend has been calling you,” Jacob answered, narrowing his eyes at me. “Even I have been hearing your phone ringing since.”

“I’ll be down in a minute,” I answered, pursing my lips and turning around from me. I knew he was worried about me, even though he was too angry to show it. And I was just as worried about him. But I had too much to think of.

I ran my hands through my hair in frustration after Jacob left without a word, then I rubbed my face.

I had to talk about what I have been avoiding for months. I have to talk about the realm. And I have to talk about being their king. Ruling them. Fuck. It was time already. I needed to stop avoiding the conversation because it wasn’t taking me anywhere.

And now that Sophia was in the picture…I would do anything to make sure she remained safe.

I ran my hands through my hair again. I didn’t know what I was going to tell Mike when I saw him but I had to tell him what had happened. And I could already see the disappointment in his face. He had warned me after all.

I walked out of the study and slammed the door shut in annoyance. I was very frustrated about all that was happening and all of it was my fault. If only I didn’t have that one night stand with her that night. If only I didn’t mark her…if only I didn’t leave the realm and come here to try to have a normal life in the first place, allof these wouldn’t be happening.