🌸Can't Let You Go🌸- A KimChay AU

Chapter 20- Beginning Middle End

Chay stared into the mirror at his attire.

Last time Chay wore a blue and red suit that had small green accents embroidered throughout the hems. It represented both houses but that time they decided that they wouldn't do that this time.

Today he wore a formal black kimono with a crest and a black and grey skirt-like hakama over the kimono with a matching obi over the black haori jacket over his kimono. The outfit was tied together with tabi socks and zori shoes.

He did a spin in the familiar dressings. He hadn't worn this since their first wedding ceremony where they had done the traditional Japanese wedding ceremony.

They decided to have a normal Western wedding but to wear each of their respective cultures' attire to signify their coming together. They recognise that their first two ceremonies weren't exactly important to them because they were just for obligation for the mafia world.

Kim was adamant about their last and official wedding being their do-over.

"It was the wedding where everything changed for us," Kim says as they cuddle on Chay's couch. "We can redo our decorations as everything if that's what you want but we should make this ceremony more personal."

"I wonder something P'Kim" Chay lifts his head from Kim's chest to look at him.

Kim hummed in response to let him know that he was listening.

"When we kissed," Chay blushed thinking back to his first kiss and just had intense it was. "Even though you was pretending during then, why did you kiss me like that? It was a bit disorientating from how intense and passionate it was compared to how aloof you were during the contract signing just before that."

Kim laid his head back as he looked back up at the ceiling.

"Well since it was both yours and I's first kiss, I wanted us to at least have one thing to look back on fondly." Kim looked back at Chay and kissed his forehead. "So I had to enjoy myself at least a little bit because I didn't know how long it would take to get rid of Korn. And that is also why I didn't take you that night. I didn't want your first time to be followed by hardship."

"If it wasn't for my father, we would have shared our first time together that night." Kim looks remorseful and gives Chay a sad smile. "I actually tried to save my first everything for you. My first kiss. My first time. Everything. But I let him and Apple take my first time from us and that's my biggest regret. I was able to save everything else for you but the one thing that should have been ours wasn't."

"P'Kim, it's okay." Chay stops Kim's spiral. "Dr. Yok already talked to you about this already. You were sexually assaulted by them. Don't beat yourself up about that ok? We can just act like that night was our first."

"Or we can just hit the reset button when our wedding comes around. Redo our wedding night to how we want it to be." Chay sits up so that he's just beside Kim. "Besides I got everything else that's your first. First kiss, first time giving a blowjob, first time going multiple rounds. I also remember you playing with my chest a lot. So I'd say that what she took doesn't seem to matter much in the end."

Kim smirks before sitting up.

"Then I'll just have to take you up on that offer."

He grabs Chay's chin and pulls him in for a searing kiss. Chay quickly opens his mouth enjoying the feel of Kim's tongue exploring it. Kim's been more open to kissing since the proposal and Chay couldn't have been happier.

Chay slides his arms around Kim's neck as he climbs into Kim's lap only for Kim to quickly stop him before pulling away.

"Don't get too ahead of yourself now." Kim places a quick peak on Chay's nose as the younger pouts. "We can wait the 2 weeks until then."