I was gonna make a video (a link from Google drive...wink wink nudge nudge, I figured out a way to make videos 🤫)
But...I don't feel like doing that. So...just pretend I'm telling u this information with an overthetop theatrical voice. (LOL because there's a lot of trauma/PTSD here)
!!!TW MENTION OF SA, VIOLENCE, TRAUMA!!!
1. Been SAed by my step father when I was 9 and still identifying as feminine/female (he's moved away now YAYYYYYY, but still has to come legally visit every week 3 times AWWWWW)
2. Lived (until age 8) in a rundown uptown city of Manhattan New York, infested with immigrants...so the English I learned was "WHY U WALKING HERE?" AND "FORGET ABOUT IT YOU FAG"
3. Native language Russian. Second is English (I'm an AP LANG kid). I know Spanish and French on a decent level. And Korean is shit, but I can understand and speak a few phrases, also I can read Hangul.
4. I've attempted offing myself like 8 different times. Self harm was present in me from grade 4 till grade 11.
5. I live in a cage with my mother who has severe BPD from my step father. Bi-polar disorder is much harder to deal with when it's something ur dealing with 24/7. There are times it gets better, other times when I call her out on it, she'll either choke me or scold me, threatening to really hurt me. Also her being severely homophobic and transphobic isn't really helping. When I'm 19 or 20 I'm outta here. (I'm almost 18)
6a. When I still lived with my grandma for most of the time in New York in our small apartment, my mom was tirelessly working to make ends meet. (Yeah we lived in poverty for a while, until my mom met my step father)
6b. My OG father was a pianist and nice person...alcoholic...he was 46 WHEN MY MOM WAS 20 ISH...they were barely dating, before my OG father was too drunk and hit a guy with a chair while my mom was accidentally pregernatè (ft ME). they were on patrol afterward the incident from a cop, so YEAHHHH.
6c. The skool I went to....OOOOOOO...UHHHH...well from them being extremely physical towards the kids, to them tormenting and embarrasing special Ed kids/English learners (ft ME)...to this incident of me seeing a boy (won't name names) my classmate being dragged out for his nad behaviour (he was clearly special ed) my English learner teacher pulled me out of class so that I wouldn't have to see that (BLESS HER SOUL 🕊<3) but...I still saw him in the library sat on a chair being scolded by the principal, vice principal, and janitor. One of them held a heavy stick...I don't want to describe the glimpse of what I saw...I just know he was scared, had a bruise, and was hyperventilating.
7. I have 2 cats 1 dog
8. I have 2 siblings aged 9 and 5 (my mom and step father had them together)
So uh...yeah..
TRAAAUUUMMAAAAA!!!!!!
(no wonder I got sucked into horror, BL, and kpop)
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Side note
Read Jinx....WISH I NEVER HAVE, now I'm REALLY traumatized great 👍 (but fr, this shit is like Dangerous Drug Of Sex, HIGHLY RECCOMEND...if u can handle it...it's 80% r@93
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