Alpha King Jeon Jungkook || TZUKOOK

CHAPTER 45

~ TZUYU'S POV~

I lowered my head and looked at my baby girl. It feels as if my heart was put into a freeze. The pain of burning from the ice was more painful than the fire. My daughter's mate is a vampire? I had no words to say and I don't know what's happening. I can't even understand.

I watched her beautiful face for a moment and then closed my eyes. I Wish Jungkook was here with me. I don't know what to do. How can I take care of my children properly without Jungkook? I need him in my life and my children do. Without his control, I feel unsafe and weak. I let out a complicated sigh and turned to leave. If that vampire could come through the windows or walls like that, how about other vampires? What if all of them came in like that? And what I didn't understand was this prince of the vampire kingdom's friendly manner. Wasn't he a person who's working with rogues?

Jin said that vampires shot Jungkook. Was he also one of them? I don't think that my daughter will ever be with him once she grows up if he's also someone who murdered Jungkook. I have to tell my children the truth when they grow up. I will tell them that it was vampires who had shot their daddy with silver bullets. If this prince is also a part of it, I won't let my daughter be with someone like that.

I turned and took Ayaan's hand as I walked back into our room. Coming in, I placed Yuna on the bed and pulled Ayaan into my embrace. Why do all the bad things happen now?

"Who is he... mommy?"

I heard Ayaan's question as he looked up at me. His question was a simple one and I already knew the answer but I just didn't know how to reply to him. A vampire? His sister's mate? Or a prince? I feel devastated already. I want Jungkook to be with me at this point so he can suggest what we are going to do. I don't know if I should let that vampire boy take my daughter when she grows up or not. And especially why did her mate become a vampire? The confusion was still struggling in my head and I slowly lay on the bed, hugging Ayaan against my chest.

"I don't know him baby" I muttered. I don't know him. Rather than saying anything, it's better to say that I don't know him. What I am still unable to understand is how our lives changed within a blink of an eye. Everything changed.

First Jungkook left us, then I and my children had to hide because people were fighting over the next alpha position and now a handsome vampire came and claimed that he was my newborn daughter's mate. I glanced at the anklet he gave me and bit my lower lip. Should I give this to my daughter? I don't know... I need Jungkook's opinion but I will never get that opinion from him anymore. He's not coming back to us and I have to make up my mind and move forward with my life without his presence.

Another day passed. I was bathing Ayaan. Once I was done, I changed him to new clothes and took him downstairs for his breakfast. I fed him and then let him play with his beloved pet. I watched Ayaan playing for a while and wanted to go upstairs to check on Yuna although I knew that she was sleeping after drinking. Just like I wanted, I checked on her and walked into the washroom as I grabbed a shower. Once I was done, I changed into a dress that Jungkook bought me. Everything stabs my heart by reminding me of him. I still can't get over his death but I'm trying not to think about him but it happens. I can't make myself not think about him when he's the only one in my mind every day.

I stared at myself through the mirror. The dress was a beautiful one but look at me. I've become ugly. I feel that I've become so ugly. It is visible that I'm a little skinnier than before and at the same time the exhaustion and sadness in my eyes had given an unremovable gloominess to my face. I ignored my appearance and dried my hair completely before combing it.

While I was brushing my hair, I felt something weird. My wolf became somewhat crazy as she began to struggle. She was reckless like she never was after receiving the heartbreaking news days before. She had gone silent completely after learning of his death. But now she's acting weird by struggling with me. What made me confused was that I couldn't even understand the reason for her struggle and sudden weirdness. I tried asking her what was wrong but she didn't answer me either.