" you know you are truly alive when you're living among lions "
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"Congratulation, ma'am, you are two months pregnant." I wanted to laugh, but I would look crazy, and there is no joy in my heart for this news, so I thank the doctor and leave her office to go home. Life has always played me by throwing different challenges at me to fight.
How will I tell him I am pregnant, and how will he react? Will he hate me, blame me, or even love this child as his .
(Twelve years back )
Although the Ashkir family's dining room gives off the impression that they are in mourning, in reality, everyone is just eating, and their relationship with their younger daughter is extremely strained. Isia Alishba Ashkir is the second and last child of Mr. and Mrs. Ashkir. However, their relationship with their younger daughter is extremely strained, and the parents are the only ones who know why. "Mum, please hurry up; I have to get to school early." My older sister's timeliness once more I am aware that my father is brimming with pride over her reminder to arrive at school on time. This hurt so much again that they did not care about me at all. I am the annoying person who never seems to have anything worthwhile to do . When my father said this to me, I still recall thinking that my mother would defend me, but instead she would just shake her head and turn away. I sobbed a lot that day. I stand up to get my bag before they leave me and do not care how I got to school. "Isia, I expect you to wait and pack our plates before leaving the dining area." I wanted to say Mom will leave me at home and I will be late to school, but what difference does it make to them whether I am late or not, or that I will trek to school. I wait for him to finish eating and take the plate to the kitchen to wash.
I am already one hour late, I just got tired and sat down on the roadside bench, to be honest I feel so tired to trek I slept around three in the morning and woke up around five to prepare breakfast. Then I saw a car coming my way, and I immediately smiled because I knew it was Aziel's driver taking him to school. Aziel's father is my father's best friend. I stand in front of the car so they can see me, and the driver slows down for me. "Aziel, good morning, could you please drop me off at my school?" heded his head, and I hopped in; the ride was silent because Aziel and I do not really talk. They dropped me off and I walked to class; once again, missed my first period. My teachers are already tired of complaining about my tardiness, so they just keep quiet and allow me to come whenever I want. Why will not they keep quiet, My father is one of the school board members who sponsor many of the school expenses.
School has always been my problem gateway, and that is because of my classmates, I was blessed with good classmates, high school was not a good phase for some people, but not for me, I enjoyed my school time a lot apart from note writing.
Since I did not want to feel suffocated in the same car as them, I skipped waiting for my mom to pick up my sister and me after school. In addition, I like to walk from school because it helps me not worry or think too much, which allows me to feel less stressed emotionally.
"Where did you go to Isia, do you know I was looking for you and I even begged mom to wait for you?" I hate it when she try to help me or beg my parents for me. I am not trying to sound ungrateful or jealous, but it just that whenever she does this, I feel like I owe her my gratitude or I am the unwanted child. "I do not feel like riding with you guys," I said as I walked away from her place. "Come back here, Isia, and apologize to your sister for keeping her waiting and being rude to her just now." I hate it when my father makes me apologize to her every time; I walk back to her place and mutter "sorry," but my father slaps me just because he said I roll my eyes, tears well up in my eyes, and I hold my face, "Dad, why did you slap her? Did I complain or anything" I drop my head down and leave to go to my room, but I met my mother along the way. I do not know what triggered my tears, but they started falling fast because I thought if my mother saw me crying, she would stand up for me, but it was all a wishful thinking because my mother just walked away without saying sorry or even hugging me.
(Present)
Maybe he will accept this pregnancy and even love me for it, but I know deep down Aziel will not. Instead, he will feel bad more for sleeping with me, or even feel he is betraying my elder sister.
I got home and need to prepare dinner before he gets home. "Mom, why do you look like that?" I forgot to mask my emotions before returning home because of Miya. "No baby, mom's just sick."
I know she will not let the matter rest unless I cheer up my emotions. " Mom, Miss Amy said we are having our slumber party tomorrow and the pyjamas should be pink, but I hate pink because it makes me look like a child." I roll my eyes again because she does not like it when you classify her as a child, even though she is only five years old.
I lost myself in thinking again when I remember how I will break the news to Aziel.
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RomanceYou can't be prepared for everything life's going to throw at you . It was bearable when she was rejected and treated like an outcast by her own family, but how will Isia handle it when the man she loves and married does not reciprocate her feelings...
