The Little Scared Girl.

It Hurts.

First kiss is meant to be something romantic or more than just romantic, in which their eyes should remain closed and in that less than a minute moment they should be feel like they are flying off the ground.
I had a problem with kiss but still I always saved my first kiss for the person I would love. And I imagined my moment to be perfect ; with eyes closed, full of passion and more over I thought that on that perfect moment my feet will lift in the air.

So whatever this was it ruined my imagination of having a pefect kiss.

What the hell was that?
I asked with an unexpected angry tone.

What that?
He smiles. And started to walk towards the door.

I rush to the door so that he can't leave the room easily.
Don't you dare to leave before answering my question.

He put his hands in the air like he surrendered.
Fine go ahead.

What was that for ? Why did you kiss me ?
I cross my hands around my chest and took a deep breath..

It's not like you haven't kissed anyone before.
C'mon it was just one stupid move.
He chuckles.
And left the room leaving me in a paralysed state. I fell numb.
My eyes widen in disappointment on his words, what did he meant by one stupid move.
I should've been angry on him for the sentence that:

It's not like you haven't kissed anyone before ....
but instead his words :

Stupid move..

made me feel like someone stabbed me in my heart and suddenly I noticed tears falling out of my eyes and running through my cheeks to my lips.

Suddenly the door knocked breaking my concentration I rub my face in hurry so that no one could see me crying.
And the door opens because I didn't reply to the knocking.

Oops sorry I didn't knew someone was here.
It was the same staff member whom I asked about the restroom.

I try to give him a smile but it came out wrong and he noticed my face.

Ma'am are you okay?
He asked while looking at my wet eyes and red cheeks.

Ye..s.
I stutter

Are you sure Ma'am? Do you want me to call someone for you?
He asked

No thanx.
And I rushed out of the room and started running on the stairs towards the gate.

I managed to get out of that house without anybody watching me leave, as I stepped out of the gate my eyes couldn't control and tears started to fall miserably, while I was still running in my heels.

I tried not to cry for that d-bag but I couldn't help myself. And I stop running and take a deep breath as I was breathing heavily cause of continuous running and after 5 minute rest I started walking all alone in the middle of nowhere and it was almost midnight.

I heard my cellphone buzzer, I struggle to take out from my purse as my vision was blur cause of my crying state. I checked and it was mom. I picked up

Hey sweetie where are you? I told you to get back before midnight. Did you check the time.. its 12.
What she said didn't make me worry or make my mood better.

Ye..ahh I know.....
I tried to act normal but my voice was all sad and I also stutter. I know my mom, she's clever.

Baby everything's fine ?
She asked. I can hear her worrying from the other side of the phone, after listening my voice.