Do Your Best and Regret

Chapter 55

It's been a long time since I went out on a carriage this late at night. Sir Howard Interfield, a great knight, was not only good at riding horses, but he was also good at driving carriages. I deliberately looked out the window and thought of something else. While thinking about Howard's almost unwavering driving skills, I unconsciously looked at Edwin's face reflected in the window. I couldn't bring myself to look directly at Edwin's face, who was sitting across from me.

The moment I looked at Edwin, I felt like I was recalling the face he showed me earlier... In my room a little while ago. It was when Edwin's trembling in my arms subsided.

I spoke impulsively while comforting Edwin's pounding heart with my palm.

"If it's okay, would you like to go and take a look now?"

"May I?"

I looked at Edwin's face at the damp voice. The expression Edwin made at that moment will probably never be forgotten for the rest of my life. A face that desperately looks at me like a child left alone. Edwin's inner self, who had held me tightly, was revealed to me.

I swallowed my breath without realizing it. Tears filled his red eyes and ran down the comers of his eyes. With his eyes and the tip of his nose turning red, Edwin looked at me earnestly as if I were his savior. It was different from the way he usually gave me a friendly look that made my heart tingle or made eye contact so persistently that it made me feel embarrassed.

Edwin shook his head slightly, looking confused and in disbelief. He looked like he couldn't figure out what to say. I swallowed the throbbing pain in my heart. And I had a hunch that that expression, stuck in my heart like a piece of glass, would never go away for the rest of my life.

But if I cried at this moment, Edwin would put aside the pain and comfort me. So I suppressed the lump in my throat and spoke sweetly. Just like Edwin did for me.

"Sure. Now the White Crystal Mine belongs to Edwin. Anytime Edwin wants, you can go and see it anytime."

His mother's belongings were stolen, and the treasures of the Kingdom of Lowell. I was well aware of the resonance that such a being gave. Maybe if someone were to give me my mother's thread anklet, I might be like Edwin in a daze and then burst into tears.

I was grateful that I could be with Edwin, who always lifted me up, at this moment. I held Edwin's hand firmly and made eye contact with him.

"Next time, it would be better if you go alone. Come with me just for today."

I just wanted to be behind him. I couldn't let the person I loved so dearly be alone on a day like this. I added hastily.

"I will never interfere with Edwin's tour of the mine. So, come with me this time."

I waited impatiently for Edwin's answer. Edwin nodded his head almost invisible.

"I will prepare the carriage right away."

Howard, who didn't know when he came, said with red eyes...

"As soon as I return, I will ask for a stamp to prove joint ownership. So, I'm taking a little break. If I don't rest, I really won't see Bethany tomorrow. Okay?"

Now that I think about it, Bethany must be lying down well. Thinking of Bethany, who was barely nodding as if exhausted, I looked in the direction of the Great Duchy for a moment. Suddenly, the great siege seemed as small as a dot.

How long does it take to reach the mine?

I recalled the first time I came to Vikander and measured the distance. In the silence, I had to keep thinking about other things in order not to consciously look at Edwin.