Unwritten vows

Velaryon coast

I was sitting on the boat and quietly rocking against the waves, my knees were drawn closely to my chest and my Golden curly locks fell Down along my back. The feeling now seemed to irritate me more than it did calming. I wanted to dig my fingers into my scalp and wrip it from my head though I loved the looks of my hair more than anything.

I did'nt want to feel anything on my body, and the days would soon turn into months and me and Lucerys would soon end up in bed - or atleast that was what I had pictured clearly in mu mind after my parents words about Marriage and wedding nights. Her mother had painted a clear picture of how Marriage looked. I did'nt want my bethrotal to end up like my mothers and fathers, the mere thought dreaded me to my very core.

"Mommy.." the words were whispered quietly from my parted lips, a crack of vunerability seeped through my words. The small whisper was barely audible, even to myself. I knew no one would be able to hear me but it did'nt really matter, I wanted my mother. Mama's Girl, I've always been one, been craddled in her arms and found comfort in her warmth which was a Stark contrast from the distant and coldness of my father.

I did'nt hate my father, he was atleast fine most of the time he would just ignore me or chat shortly whenever we ate dinner, it was always tense. But he had promised that he always the best of me. To find a prince that was strong, kind and gentle, and that was what he was doing Right now, Right?

I could hear my fathers men walk up on the deck, Right above me. They werent exactly quiet yet it did'nt Seem to loud, even if the board seemed to creak over a few of the heavy steps. I looked out from a small, round window. The glass had turned slightly fogged and now also wet from the High waves. Driftmark was in sight, I let out a breath of defeat as i turned around and slid my back Down the Wall until i landed onto my behind Right on the cold ship floor. "Gods.." i muttered as i closed my eyes and leaned back my head, rubbing a hand Down my face. I finally snapped out of it when the ship came to a halt, finally hitting shore after gods know how long, i hadn't been up. My body tensed, this was it.. surely it wouldnt be as bad as i thought, he couldnt be that bad.. Right?

I could hear the men mutter to themselves before going Down to get me, the door creaking open after a few heavy knocks placed against the wooden door "we are here, princess" a gaurd smoke in a respectful manner. I Got up from the floor with a heavy heart and a head full of thoughts, like a unyielding storm. I walked up to the deck, looking over the Rocky landscape as i clenched my fists. I could see the Targaryen family, a silver haired woman and a little Brown haired boy. A bastard. The thought ran in my head, silently greatful for the fact that it wasn't an incest looking silver hair boy that i would eventaully marry. I placed both my hands onto my lap, they were sweaty and clammy almost. I forced a small smile onto the curls of my Lip, trying to look presentable than my previous State. A gaurd offered their arm to me, gentleman.

I shook my head, not infront of my bethroted, i did'nt know how he would react if i did. I knew of some men whom would start fumming if their fiancé even breathed the same heir as another. The gaurd respected my decision and slowly began to walk Down towards Rhanerya and Lucerys whom stood and waited innthe sand of the Beach, waiting for me. My heart started to pound, so violently that i might fear that the others could hear it hammering against my ribs. Atleast i had my breath under control, so i did'nt look a total mess, only halfway there. The boy looked my age, even a bit younger, but i knew he wasn't. My mother had reassured me that he was going to be older than myself, if only by a few weeks or a few moons or so.

But here we both stood, and we both looked just as akward and nervous as the others. Two Young souls forced to connect even if they did'nt want to. Their future was already decieded for Them,, for us. A thought i was sure we both dreaded, even if I would never admit it to him.