Scumbag Falls for Fiance After Breaking Engagement(ABO)

Chapter 40 I don't recognize you anymore

　On the first snowy day, Shen Liangyue covered his silver hair with a black veil and was escorted to the Imperial Star Cathedral by the butler. The old butler kept watch over him and would pull out his gun if he saw anyone looking at him for a second longer. Because of the kidnapping, everyone was on edge, and the cathedral was cleared in advance. He could no longer pray with the crowd like before. In the lonely and empty church, only his footsteps echoed. The ethereal singing and reciting of hymns disappeared with the innocent years, never to return.

　　Most people in the interstellar age no longer believe in God, and the universe is no longer mysterious. There are only tiny galaxies, but no omnipotent God. But Shen Liangyue has always liked the atmosphere of the church. It makes him feel peaceful. He has imagined countless times exchanging rings and making vows with He Mingfeng in hymns. He is obsessed with this holy sense of ritual. But who would have thought that when he was eighteen years old and stood under the dome of the church, there were no flowers, only graves.

　　On this day of the first snow, there are bones under the snow. Shen Liangyue knelt in front of the statue with his hands clasped together. He bought a tombstone for the child, on which was only the date he lost him. The light shone through the colored windows on his pale and bright face, like a marble statue. His beauty was classical and elegant, but it also always carried some conservative and inappropriateness - just like he always expected a marriage contract, or pursued a lifelong love.

　　He paid a heavy price for his naivety, and finally fell from the illusory clouds built up by those fairy tales into reality. After losing his child, Shen Liangyue thought a lot during the days he lay in bed recuperating. He once thought he lived a sober life, but now it seems that it was nothing more than childish and shallow views and self-hypnosis.

　　Although he had decided not to have a child, Shen Liangyue was still heartbroken when the flesh and blood left his body. After he woke up from his coma, he found that Xueqiu was also missing. The housekeeper and his men searched for a long time but found nothing. It seemed that some hidden intention suggested that he should say goodbye to everything with He Mingfeng.

　　He thought of his careful management in the past, trying to prolong the alpha's enthusiasm in an ambiguous way. Now he just felt it was stupid. What he forced himself to hold on was false joy, and what he forced himself to do was useless. The false balance and sweet illusion were meaningless. He could not keep the people who were supposed to leave.

　　Buried under that tombstone was not only the child and their dead relationship, but also the past Shen Liangyue. He was no longer like before, secretly praying to the gods to bless him and Brother He to grow old together.

　　Here, what we seek is no longer the protection of the outside world, but our own peace of mind - God is not in the universe, God is in everyone's heart.

　　Growth is always accompanied by pain, but fortunately, the moon's shadow is beautiful, and its darkness is to make it more dazzling in the next full moon. With a black veil covering his cheek, Shen Liangyue knew that it was time to leave. He raised his hand and made a cross on his chest, silently saying goodbye to the child, the past, and the Emperor Star.

　　His actions still retain a sense of dignity and ritual. The failure of love can easily destroy a person, and the total denial of self-worth is the most painful sequelae of a broken heart. Shen Liangyue always wanted to ask He Mingfeng, what is wrong with him? In fact, what is not good enough is He Mingfeng's hesitation and weak and selfish human nature.

　　Now that he no longer loves him, Shen Liangyue has experienced rebirth after the death of her heart. He struggles to break free from the maze of emotions, giving up what should be given up and keeping what should be kept.