Scumbag Falls for Fiance After Breaking Engagement(ABO)

Chapter 69: The Heart is Like a Pendulum

　　People often compare love to war, probably because love is like war, with one advancing while the other retreating, and one gaining while the other loses. Shen Liangyue only now realizes that five years ago, they both became deserters of love.

　　Feelings are like water, flowing back and forth, circulating dynamically between two people. When He Mingfeng took a step back because of various concerns, he was also complacent and even playing hard to get because of his own reserve. This made He Mingfeng even more unsure, more hesitant and wavering. When Shen Liangyue sensed his wavering, he also lost her sense of security and became more unable to be honest with himself.

Once this vicious cycle occurs, they can only retreat step by step. Although they love each other, they push each other further and further away. Both of them are defeated in the battlefield of love, and both of them are extremely painful and frustrated - this battle is a lose-lose situation with no winner.

　　They were young and proud at that time, and no one was willing to love without dignity. If they gave love, they had to get a positive response, otherwise the frustration would kill them. Shen Liangyue had heard Chu Fei confess his feelings to He Mingfeng with his own ears, and he was deeply shocked by this, not only because he saw their intimate behavior with his own eyes, but also because if he was not sure that He Mingfeng loved him, Shen Liangyue would never say these words.

　　Would everything have been different if he had said "I love you" back then, instead of saying "I really loved you at that time" five years later?

　　Maybe just like He Mingfeng said, he shouldn't put his own dignity above their feelings, or maybe Shen Liangyue's love at that time was also not wise enough and not mature enough.

　　In the past few years, Shen Liangyue would occasionally reflect on this relationship, and it seemed that He Mingfeng was the same. His words sounded ridiculous at first, but if you think about it carefully, they are not unreasonable - perhaps life is absurd, and therefore unpredictable and impossible to guess. Everyone has emotions and impulses, and their thoughts will lead them to do many irrational things.

　　That failed relationship has largely shaped them to what they are today, especially He Mingfeng. Omegas are naturally more emotional than alphas, and most alphas cannot manage their bodies and minds well, and are easily tempted and live entirely by instinct. Just like when Shen Liangyue repeatedly asked He Mingfeng about his emotional choices, the alpha could only answer "I don't know" in confusion. He was wrapped up in love, sex, affection, and pheromones, and couldn't tell them apart like a blind man touching an elephant. In the past five years, he finally began to reflect on himself because of loss and pain. After peeling off his instincts layer by layer, he finally saw

　　See the bleeding sincerity.

　　In matters of love, only when you have a clear understanding can you do it without hesitation, otherwise you will waver if things don't go as you wish. Regardless of whether it is ridiculous or not, this confession allowed Shen Liangyue to hear He Mingfeng's understanding of love. Five years ago, they could not have such a conversation because Alpha had never thought deeply about these "twists and turns, details". This kind of thinking itself is valuable.

　　Shen Liangyue did not deny that there might be a perfect alpha in the world, who was extremely sensitive in emotions, had no teacher to teach him about love, was firm and responsible, and people who were loved by such an Alpha were extremely lucky. But the alpha he loved was clumsy and absurd in emotions, like a poor student who could never be taught. So when He Mingfeng handed in such an answer sheet that showed that he had put in a lot of effort, Shen Liangyue had to admit that he was sincere and regretful, even though he still felt that his actions back then were stupid and hurtful.