I knew it was over

Why now?

My dad hates me

But I hate him too

I wish mum came back, but she is gone

it's dads fault

I wish my brother and sister would come visit, but they don't

it's dads fault

From the outside looking in, I have a normal life, I go to school and have friends and I enjoy every minute of it, it's not cause I like to learn, it's cause I'm away from home

Away from Dad.

I have a girlfriend

My dad doesn't know

He doesn't even know I like girls

He would kill me if he found out.

I don't tell him anything.

Me and her started going out together

In secret

I would sneak out at night to see her

Every night.

One night I couldn't go

My dad was awake the whole night

I'm sitting in my room journaling when I hear a knock on the door

My dad goes to open it

"HELP" it's her.

"No,no" this can't be happening I'm shaking tears rolling from my eyes

I rush down those dusty wood stairs the same ones I rushed down when it was mum yelling for help.

"SAGE WHAT THE FUCK, YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND, YOU LIKE GIRLS, DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH TROUBLE YOUR IN,BOTH OF YOU ARE IN, YOU SINNER."

I see her

It's going to end me.

My dads got a knife held at her throat

I can't bear to see her like this, can't bear to see anyone like this.

"Dad stop" I say

The tears are gushing down my face and I am shaking

"Your a SINNNER, you both are" he says

I've had enough of his bullshit; I'm not scared for my safety I'm scared for hers.

"How am I a sinner , DAD YOU ABUSED MUM SHES GONE BECAUSE OF YOU" I'm screaming and I can feel the tears gushing out harder and faster

"I HAD SIBLINGS YES THEY ARE OLDER BUT THEY NEVER VISIT,THEY LEFT , THEY LEFT AFTER THEY SAW WHAT YOU DID TO MUM".

He lets go of her and she drops to the cold dusty floor, she's covered in blood and cuts; I rush towards her but dad pulls out the knife and points it at me.

How do I call this man my dad?

He is no dad to me.

No dad to anyone.

No wife to anyone.

No brother.

No uncle.

No friend.

No coworker.

But a foe to everyone.

I grab the blade of the knife, my hand has a huge cut in it, the crimson red blood spewing out from the palm of my hand.

The pain is unbearable.

But living without her is worse.

I tug at the knife

My dad finally drops it

I pick it up, it is covered in crimson red blood, I put the knife in my pocket making sure it's far from him

He try's to throw a punch

Fuck I hate him, he's drunk as fuck

I grab his arm stoping him from trying to punch me, then I kick him in the stomach spot. He drops in pain and I rush over to her.

I shake her,

No response

"WILL" I scream tears rushing down my face

"WILLOW PLEASE" you can hear the pain in my voice. I continue to shake her

No response.