Hollywood Princess

Chapter 19: A Princess Alone

The next morning my Goodnite was wet, as had become my new normal, as the reoccurring nightmare had not left my mind yet. I looked over at Yuki sleeping beside me, she was leaving, and today was the day. As I thought about her leaving and being without her, I couldn't help but cry. We had spent nearly every waking moment together for the last two years, and now she had to leave. How would I go on without her?

Part of me knew that she would be coming back, we were engaged after all, but the emotional part of me overruled logic at this moment. I guess my crying got a bit loud, as Yuki began to stir next to me. Her eyes fluttered open as she attempted to ascertain the source of the sound that had woke her. Her eyes landed on my tear-stained face, and she immediately sat up and pulled me into a big hug. My soft sobs turned into all-out bawling cries, as I felt myself slipping.

"Mommy don't leave me! Julie need you! No Leave Julie alone!" I was shaking now, the emotions were too much to bear.

She continued to hold me and stroke my hair as I sobbed into her shoulder. She rocked back and forth with me making shushing noises. Suddenly I felt my pacifier slipped between my lips, and I instantly started sucking on it greadily. With Mommy's touch and the pacifier, I finally started to calm down. When I had calmed down to just the occasional sniffle, Mommy let go of me. She grabbed a tissue off the nightstand and wiped my snot-covered face. She embraced me again, speaking softly to me.

"I know you don't want Mommy to leave. Mommy doesn't want to leave either, but Mommy has no choice. Don't be sad, Mommy will Facetime you every day so she can see her pretty little girl. You won't be alone either, you'll have GiGi here too."

I sniffled a bit, still sad, but calmer now. In my fit of crying, I hadn't even noticed myself using my Goodnite again. It was not designed for multiple floods and had leaked all over the bed. Finally feeling the wetness, I looked down and blushed from embarrassment. I had peed on Mommy too! If she had noticed, she hadn't said anything. She helped me get out of bed and took me into the bathroom. She turned on the shower and began undressing me as it heated up. My soaked shorts and my sleep shirt went into the hamper. Mommy then ripped the sides of my Goodnite and gave me a quick wipe with a wet wipe, telling me to try to go potty real quick. I wasn't able to go, Mommy removed her wet clothes and threw them in the hamper.

I watched as she stepped into the shower, and then held out her hand for me to join her. I stepped into the shower with Mommy and felt the soothing warm water run down my body. Mommy quickly washed herself and then went to work on getting me clean. Taking a washcloth she scrubbed me down head to toe, making sure I was squeaky clean. Mommy then shampooed my hair thoroughly, making sure to work it into the scalp. Rinsing my hair of shampoo, she turned off the shower. Stepping out she quickly toweled herself down as I stood in the shower starting to shiver from the temperature change. Wrapping the towel around her body, she grabbed another towel and quickly dried me off.

Mommy then helped me blowdry my hair and style it. She did a quick French Braid on my hair, separating it into pigtails. Hair dry, Mommy lay down my towel on the ground and instructed me to lie down. I quickly did as asked, as she grabbed a new Goodnite and baby powder. Just a few minutes later I was in a fresh dry Goodnite and started heading for the bedroom door when Mommy stopped me. She reminded me that she still needed to get me dressed, and I blushed a deep crimson at the realization that I had almost walked into the hall in just a Goodnite. I quickly walked back to her and allowed her to dress me in some cute casual clothes for the day. Fully dressed, we both walked downstairs for breakfast.

Breakfast was quiet, as we all ruminated on the afternoon to come. My Mother had of course given Yuki use of the private jet and its crew for her return to Japan. This afternoon one of our drivers would escort us all to our private hangar where Yuki would board the plane and we would say our goodbyes. I didn't feel very hungry, so I mainly picked at my food. How could I be hungry at a time like this?

After breakfast, I followed Mommy back to my room as she packed the final few things for her trip home. Once she was satisfied everything, besides her pee-stained pajamas, was packed we just lay together on the bed in each other's arms. I had no energy and no desire to do anything else, I only wanted to be with her. I spent that morning trying to memorize the lines of her face and the smell of her perfume. We only got out of bed for lunch, by which point my Goodnite was soaked. Mommy gave me a quick change before we both went down for lunch.

Once again, I wasn't feeling hungry and mostly picked at my food. I saw the look of concern on Mommy's face, but she didn't say anything. I think she knew it was because I was sad. Yuki and I sat together in the media room one last time, cartoons on the television as we snuggled. Usually, my eyes would be glued to the brightly colored cartoons, but today I couldn't focus and I didn't pay much attention to them.

I began to softly cry again because I knew soon it would be time for Mommy to leave. She cradled me in her arms, stroking my hair to calm me down. We sat like that for another sixty minutes before it was time. Christine, the head driver, came into the house gathered Yuki's stuff, and placed them in the back of the Black Mercedes SUV with heavy window tint.

I piled into the back with Mommy and GiGi, and once Mommy buckled me in, we were off to the Airport. It took about an hour for us to drive to our private hangar, avoiding any press. Just as we exited the car, the pilot opened the hatch and lowered the stairs for Yuki to board. He stepped out of the craft and shook hands with my Mother. He gave a status update, letting my Mother know that their flight plan had been cleared and approved by the FAA and that they could leave anytime. Leaving us, he went to perform his final instrument checks before taking off. I looked at Yuki, my lip starting to tremble. I was determined to be a big girl and not cry in public. I hugged her warmly and gave her a lingering kiss on the lips.

"I'm going to miss you. Please let us know once you've landed safely!" I released my hug, and my Mother gave Yuki a quick hug.

"We'll see you in one month Yuki. We can discuss wedding plans over the phone while you're gone and finalize them once you return." As they broke the hug, Yuki looked over at me with a worried expression.

"That sounds perfect Ms Anderson, I look forward to the three of us getting started on this. Thank you for your kindness and hospitality, I truly appreciate you being so accepting of our strange dynamic. It means the world to Julie and me." She gave my mother another quick hug and cast one more furtive glance in my direction.

"Please look after Julie, I have a feeling the sorrow of me having to leave is going to cause her to slip into little space. Based on her childhood, and you going back to work when she was two, I believe she will slip into the younger headspace. Please look after her until I get back, I will make sure to Facetime her every night around bedtime to read her a story." My mother gave Yuki a reassuring smile.

"Don't you worry about a thing dear, I will make sure your little girl is well taken care of. Who knows, maybe it will be kind of fun having a toddler around the house. I did miss a lot of Julie's first toddler years." With a nod, Yuki moved back to me to give me one last hug.

"Behave while Mommy's gone. Be a good girl and Mommy will bring you lots of Japanese candy when she gets back."

She gave me one last kiss turned around and walked to the plane. She got to the top of the stairs before looking back, giving us one final wave, and blowing me a kiss. She ducked inside and the hatch was closed, she was gone.