Not Waving, But Drowning || Lee Know Centric

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Twenty-four days.

Time seems to be flashing away like lightning, because during those two weeks, I've only lost four kilograms in total.

I have one week left.

I didn't think It'd ever come to this point, but soon I found myself skipping breakfast and eating ice cubes for lunch.

It's only for seven more days though, so it's fine.

It's not like im doing anything wrong,

yet I still don't want my brothers to know.

My mom always told me that if I was ever too scared to say something, that ment it was wrong.

But im not doing anything wrong.

I'm following orders.

It was two am, and I woke up by a harsh stomachache. I tried ignoring the pain and going back to sleep, but it happened to get the best of me.

Hm, typical.

For the first time in a while, I walked into the kitchen and started searching for something to distract my stomach.

You mean yourself, right?

I opened the fridge, and was met with hell himself.

Ice cream and cake.

I couldn't tear my eyes off of them. Caramel, my all time favourite flavour of all time. And oh, the chocolate milk beside it. All of my favourites in one fridge, how would it feel to eat all of this right now?

No, no.

I'm not repeating my mistakes.

We don't talk about what happened then, I've learned from my mistakes.

I quickly closed the fridge and opened random a cupboard.

Chocolate.

When was the last time I've ever eaten dessert?

A little treat wouldn't hurt.

It's only a little bit of chocolate, it's not like I'll gain the four kilos back, right?

No, stop! Minho what are you doing-

Eat it.

B-but it's Hyunjin's, his name is written on
it...

He can get another one easily, just eat it.

I can't break the cycle again, I just begun doing so good...

JUST FUCKING EAT IT

cake

chocolate

Ice cream

chocolate milk

Raw packets of noodles

I messed up.