You look down on me

01.

I have met a lot of different people, some very polite, some very hostile
But all I know is one thing, people think mostly about themselves, not in a selfish way, but only a few percent of us are actually not self centred.

I am running, running in the dark, the street lights are very dim, I want to feel something, and apart from physical exertion I don't feel much nowadays, maybe that's why I have been addicted to working out so much. When I am alone, my mind is awfully loud, screaming inside my head the mistakes I have made, and blaming myself for every possible thing I did with her.

Who was she?

Noone.

Yeah back then she was no one to me. And suddenly she was everything, suddenly she became my reason for everything and then just as fast as she entered in my life, she left the same way, she fell first.
I fell harder.

My bones burned when I inserted her memories in my joint.
Joint of my life, burning away in smoke.

Where did this all go wrong?
I wonder
'Where it all started'
A reply.

One beautiful evening I saw her, her different eyes and her alluring smile, Not one of those which you want to just keep looking at, the one which you just glimpse at secretly.

I wanted to talk to her so I did. I went on and introduced myself. Friendly.
We talked and talked, and a lot.
We became close but not so close, the things between us were kind of different,
We saw the world with different binoculars, if she saw the clouds I saw the rain, if she wanted the warmth I wanted to be soaked.

She was beautiful, her hairs tangled me, I wanted to climb the tower as well,
She was ebullient, and one thing was always so pure about her, even after digressing away from me, she never could hide her love for me. Sure she tried her best.

Damon and Amelia.

Amelia and Damon.

Let's start from beginning, where I wanted the time to stop and where I wanted her within my reach.