keep dreaming New York 💋

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of course i tried to ignore tom all day but sometimes i saw him lookin at me with a sad look from the corner of my eyes. i didnt care if he felt sorry, but i didnt understand why? why would he? he really seemed like he cares about me. well i was wrong.
chuck was the other problem. i know he is a bad person and still i wanted to thank him. but i coulnt cause i know that would make us too close again. he has ayesha and i have... well im better off alone.🍒😝
jenny noticed that my mood was different and of course that i didnt talk a word to tom. when she asked i told her we broke up and its a long story. why would i bother her with that when i know she has her own boyfriend problems?
yeah, andrew and her fight quite often and i really start disliking that guy. he is still funny and nice but there is something off with him.

it was a long tiring day of school and kinda stressed me out. when i got home i threw my things on the bed and almost fell asleep next to them. suddenly there was a knock on my bedroom door and it shook me awake. i hoped it wasnt tom. and it wasnt
"want some coffee?"
yana was in a good mood and that made me feel a bit better. and the fact that it was not tom too. i wondered if i shoult tell her about everything but even before i thought about it, i just started talking so rushed, i bet she could barely understand a word. i almost started crying and when i finished she obviously didnt know what to say .
"oh woah, thats a lot. dont worry about it hobestly, boys are boys and you ate still so young"
i know she wanted to make me feel better but it pissed me off a bit that she acted like i was much younger than her. shes turning 18 in two months and i am turning 17 in late spring, thats not even two years. i dont wanna be okder honestly. it scares me.
"well what if we go for a walk?"
i smiled because she was still being so kind. even tho i talked uer head full. i felt bad for that.
" well sure and tell me what is going on in your life right now. you listened to me so i wanna hear about you now"
"yea sure! i will get my zipper and we can go."
i pulled out my favourite hoodie out the closet, drank all my left coffee and was ready to go.
since yana has been living here for a bit more than me, she knew some parts of the city very well. she knew the best places. i tried to follow the way in my head because maybe i coud come out here more often to clear my head. during the walk she really opened up.
" yea im not very close to my family because they wanted me to stay in russia ans that was kind of boring. oh and did you know im only half russian? yeah only my dad is from russia and my mom moved with him just before i was born. my family from my mothers sind is much more dear to me but i never see them often. they live in a little village in the middle of georgia. no one even knows that country"
i indeed never heard of it. i knew the one in america but honestly i was never good in geography.
yana continued:
"yea so i didnt even invite my family here for my birthday and i also dont want to go back home just for that. i will have a party with my friends. oh yea but my cousin from my moms side is coming. he always wanted to visit america and now that he turned 18, he will come and stay with me for a semester."
i loved listening to everything she said because her life was really interestin i just didnt know what to say to all this.
"really? tell me about your cousin."
she gave me a little grin and i didnt know what that was for.
"well he is a fun person to be around. he is shy at the beginning but im sure you would make great friends"
she winked at me and we both laughed a bit.
" yea im excited to meet him."
suddenly yanas phone started to ring and it scared us both. she took it out of her bag and looked at the screen. the nect thing i knew that she was telling me that she has to leave for something important. when i said
"alright then i guess"
she was already on her way.
i first had to realise what just happened and then i remembered : i dont know the way back!
i didnt have enough money to call a taxi so i just tried to figure out the way back. i kind of recognised some buildings and streets. i have been walking for about 15 minutes when i saw someone familiar from far. it was ayesha? chuck's girlfriend and... i knew her from somewhere else too didnt i?
when she saw me too she greeted me kindly.
"oh my god violet? how are you girl?"
i liked her energy and the way she treated me even tho we barely ever talked.
"hey ayesha nice meeting you here"
"so what are you doing walking around all by your own?"
"i could ask you the same"
we both laughed.