Emotionless

21

Killian Accardi

What did she just say?

I know that's not what I heard.

I must be going insane than usual because I think I just heard the words – and I quote – I don't because I have feelings for Race.

I let out a dark chuckle.

My face goes from soft and forgiving to hard and cold. The tears that I had earlier are now dry along with my eyeballs. Maya knew that she regretted the words that fell out of her pretty mouth because the next thing I knew. My hand is instantly in her hair and I'm pulling her head back. Her beautiful neck is on display.

I get that Maya was hurting and I know that I hurt wants mine, but to know that this girl feels for someone else than me. Is something I'm not letting slide.

"You mind repeating what you said, Mia Bella. Because I know you just didn't say what I think you just said." My eyes darken.

She gulps as her pretty eyes flicker back and forth from my eyes to the door. I grip her hair more.

"Answer me, Maya. Because I know I didn't hear you just say that you have feelings for Race!" I snap.

Somehow she manages to slip from my strong grip and create distance between the two of us. She can't have feelings for someone she barely spent time with. I watch everything in this hospital. I know Maya likes me. I know she feels something when we kiss.

I know she knows that I love her.

So, there is no way on this living earth that she likes Race!

She likes me!

"And if I did!" She defends.

She's lying!

"You're lying." I bark.

"I'm not." She barks back. "At least he won't hurt me like the monster you are!"

My heart shatters.

The cold, hard exterior is no longer there. It was replaced by a pained face. I feel tears start to sting again.

She thinks I'm a monster like everyone else.

She doesn't see me as human anymore.

"Y-You don't mean that?" My voice cracks.

I feel tears start to fall from my eyeballs as I stare down at the girl whose life I've already ruined. Please, tell me she is joking and is only saying it out of anger. Maya doesn't mean. I hope she doesn't mean it.

The next words that come out of her mouth make me hear ringing.

"I mean every word. No one cares for you, Killian. No one loves you, Killian. You're a monster. You will forever be a monster. A monster can never be loved." She spits. "I will never loved you, Killian."

All of a sudden the room is spinning and I'm breathing hard like crazy. No, not Maya. She is the very last person I want to see and call me a monster. I've been told it so many times by the people around me and don't care. But when it's from the girl – the most beautiful girl ever – that stings.

My mind was in a spiral as my mouth went dry. Everything in me just snaps and it hurts. It hurts so bad. I have never been in love like this to the point where I never wanted my Mia Bella, my Maya, to think I'm a monster.

I believed her when she said I wasn't.

It made me love her more.

I blink away the tears as much as I can but I can't. They won't stop.

"Y-You don't mean that," I repeat once more.

She does.

She can't!

"Y-You don't mean that. Maya, please tell me you're only saying it out of anger." I sob.

When have you ever seen a thirty–year–old man cry?!

Never!

And to make matters even worse. I sob! I sob for this beautiful dark skinned girl in front of me.

Maya stays quiet for a minute before releasing a long deep sigh. I sniffle, wiping away the tears before stepping towards her and she doesn't even more. I cup her face and my tears fall on her beautiful cheeks. She closed her eyes as I leaned my forehead on hers. It was quiet around us.

The only sound.

My tears and our breathing.

"Please, tell me you don't mean that," I repeat once more, teasing my lips above hers.

I knew that whole liking Race thing was a lie, but telling me I'm a monster thing. I don't know. My heart pounds like crazy when she puts her hands on my wrist and goes to tease me back. Deep down I'm screaming with pure enjoyment.

Both of us don't dare to make the move of kissing each other but the teasing gets hard. She runs her soft tongue against my lip. I let out the most utterable groan ever and did the same to her. It was fine when she finally pulled away.

"Maya..." I whisper.

Her small cute body was already at the door. Her back to me.

"I mean every word, Killian." She glances up. "You are a monster."

Monster....

Soon her body was gone and I fell to my knees. My hands cover my face as I let out the biggest sob.

No, Maya. Don't think I'm a monster.

I'm not a monster.

A/N

I don't know who was in worse pain? Me or Killian, because your girl almost cried writing this chapter. That hurts. Don't worry Kill, I got you 😉. Sad tear 🥲.

Love y'all. 💍