"What did you saw in there?" She asks very serious and my eyes widen. "Where- how-" I ask surprised. "Y/N... I was raised in the red room... I went through the same like you. Getting brainwashed, doing things I didn't wanted to do and having hallucinations because of my trauma... I understand you... please talk to me... what happened in the red room? What did he forced you to do?" She tells and asks me, and her voice is much more serious than before.
I feel how my heart starts racing, only thinking about Yelena and the noise it made when I broke her neck.
"Y/N please, you have to talk about it. Don't bottle everything up inside of you." Natasha continues speaking and takes my hand in hers, giving a light squeeze for showing me her support.
I just shake my head and stare at the wall in front of me. "Please don't shut me out. We have you finally back, I have you finally back, please talk to me. I'm the only one who can really understand you." Natasha pushes me more but my mouth feels dry and I open it but close it again because no sound comes out.
She grabs my chin gentle with two fingers of hers and turns my head, so I have to face her face. "Please Detka, talk to me." She begs me desperately but I can't speak right now.
Tears forming in my eyes and when she notices she pulls me to her and hugs my body tight. "Fuck Y/N... you have to talk about it someday. I will wait. I'm here for you and I really missed you." She speaks while stroking softly my back with her hand.
I just sit there with Natasha's arms around me, the tears are gone and I feel numb. I don't even hug her back.
She pulls away and looks into my eyes. "I can see how you shut yourself down. That's not the solution for it, okay? It's okay for the moment, for surviving, but please promise me you will talk to me or someone else about what happened." She speaks worried and I nod.
"Promise me." She speaks. "Promise..." I answer almost in a whisper. "Good girl. Now do you want to do something?" She asks me but I just shake my head.
She cups my cheek and I realize now how much I missed her touch. "Should I stay with you or do you want to be alone?" She asks me seriously and to be honest I don't really know what I want right now.
She waits a few seconds until she sees my hestitation. "I leave you some space. If you need me, please don't waste any time and come over or call me." She speaks when she gets up and turning around towards the door but I grab her wrist, stopping her from leaving.
She turns around and looks down at me with her deep blue-green eyes. Oh how I missed this eyes. How I missed staring into them and just melting away.
"Please stay..." It comes from my mouth in almost a whisper. I don't know why it's so hard for me, asking for help and support, espiacally from her. Maybe these last eight months just changed me more than I thought.
She smiles at me and I move my body, laying my head onto the soft pillow and my body onto the soft mattress. That's when I feel Nat moving behind me, wrapping her strong arms around my body and pulling me closer to her body.
Feeling the warmth of her body against mine feels so familiar. Feeling her warm breath against my neck feels so familiar. Laying in her arms feels so familiar and that's when everything overcame me and the tears just stream down my face.
I let my walls fall down I build up the last months and let the tears just flow down my cheeks. When Natasha hears me sobbing, she tightens her arms around me and tries to comfort me.
"Shhhhhhh... I've got you. I'm here." She speaks into my ear with her softest voice. She turns my body around and presses my face against her chest.
Her one hand find it's way into my hair and the other one stroking my back up and down.
I just sob into her chest, my arms wrapped around her body, as I hold her close, scared I could get seperated from her again.
"I missed you so much..." I speak while sobbing and inhale her intoxicated scent. "I missed you too, Detka, so so much." I hear her raspy voice and it breaks at the end.
I look up and see the tears forming in her eyes. "Don't cry..." I whisper but she can't control herself and a tear rolls down her cheek.
A loud sob escapes her mouth and I cup her cheek with one hand, wiping the next tear that rolls down away.
"I thought I have lost you. I thought I will never see you again." She speaks between sobs and sniffles and I feel how a few tears rolling down my cheeks again. Seeing her like this, breaks my heart.
"But you didn't lost me. I'm here and I won't leave you ever again." I try to cheer her up and bring some comfort. How much did she suffer when I was gone? Not knowing where I was and if I was still alive.
"Promise you won't ever leave me again." She speaks and I nod. "Promise." I promise her and close the gap between us, pressing my lips in a soft kiss on hers.
When we pull away our foreheads touches and we look into each others eyes. "I missed you so much. Fuck, I love you so much." She curses and I let out a chuckle.
"I missed you too and I love you too." I repeat her words and she smiles at me. "Am I crazy if I find it hot hearing you curse?" I speak, trying to cheer the sad mood up.
"Dork." Natasha shakes her head with a big smile on her lips, slapping my arm playfully. "But I'm your dork, that makes a dork out of you too." I answer and we both laugh.
Aaaaaah finally they're together again💗
But Natasha still doesn't know what exactly happened in the red room😩
Hope you're all okay💗✨
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My hot stepmom (Natasha Romanoff)
Fiksi PenggemarI was raised by my dad, James Barnes, others know him as Bucky the wintersoldier. When I was twelve he started dating a work colleague, the famous black widow. We got along pretty quickly and someday she moved in with my dad and me. When I turned...
