You never care for my interests. I don't want to play soccer or do sports, I don't want to work in a small office for the rest of my life. I don't want to just like guys. I don't want to be mean to people because they mean to me. I don't want to be like you.
I want to be an animator who spends countless hours being sucked into my art, i want to be a singer who creates music which people can escape to, i want to be someone young artists look up to and take inspiration from, i want to be a writer who captivates readers into the story and they attack me everytime i can't finish a part or something sad happens, i want to use my funny voices to be a voice actor and be in cool animated series on youtube where, i want to be in musicals or plays where i can finally be dramatic and show off skills, i want to play awesome violin pieces with my friends at music camp. I want to love who i want weather their a girl or boy, i want to spend hours in my room writing about my silly characters and giving them tragic backstories, i want to create a comic of my stories and have people around the world read it and love it, i want to draw things for hours with cool colors and art styles. I want to be one of those youtubers that animate their funny life stories or a trip they enjoyed. I want people to be interested in my life. I want to be a cosplayer that has cool outfits of characters and cringe videos. I want to be a funny youtuber that's known for doing dumb things like getting stuck in a Costco or something. I want people to see me walking down the street and think 'wow she looks cool' or wish to be me. I want to have fun and do the things I enjoy instead of only doing what you want me to do.
I want people to know me for something, whether it's a silly drawing or a completed book series. I'm always the person supporting others and watching them but I want people to do that to me! I want people to be able to say 'i was here from the start' and watch my accounts grow. I crave attention from people, Whether it's good or bad. I want people to pay attention to me, talk to me about something i like or just in general say hi to me. I want people to notice me. I crave for people to notice me, to know my name, to know what I do, what I like, to know who I am, how I draw, what I write. I don't want to die with nothing on my name. I don't want to die without doing anything valuable in my life. I want to be famous. Famous for something. I want to be like the others I see, many people looking up to them, trying to draw like them or write similar things. Get ideas from them. I love it when people speak to me about what i'm writing, who my friends are, how i'm going, what i'm interested in, who my characters are, what i'm drawing, stories i read, people i look up to, things i want to be when i'm older even if their stupid.
I don't care what it was like when 'you where my age' that was the fucking 1980's! It's 2024! That was almost 50 years ago! Times have changed, a lot. Don't try to turn me against my friends just because they like girls or is muslim. Don't try to make me think crazy conspiracies against things and make me support the wrong people. You think everything you do is the right thing when it's the complete opposite. When I was younger you would always yell at me over little things to the point where I'd cry, I would cry a lot and you just said 'it was discipline'. Making your kid be scared and hate you is called discipline? If so, I hope I never do that to my kids. You hit me whenever I did something you thought was wrong, I was what 7? And you got mad at me because I didn't pick up pieces of cardboard and you grabbed my hands and forced me to pick up the rubbish and dragged me back and forth from the room to the bin across the house while I was screaming for my mum to help me. I wanted to get paid for the amount of chores you make me do every week. I was sick for 3 days a couple of weeks ago and wasn't able to move so i did 11 chores over the weekend to make up for it and you only paid me 5 dollars whilst my sister got 10 and did LESS chores than me all together. You screamed at me and my mum and said that i've 'fucked the whole thing up' and then stopped paying both of us just because you thought i didn't do 2 chores a day, even though i made up for them over the weekend. I ran out of the living room crying, I sat on the floor next to my bed for at least an hour crying and you still thought you were right? How is that fucking fair?
