All You Had To Do Was Stay || n.h. [#Wattys2015]

Chapter 30: "Things Don't Always Work Out The Way We Thought They Would"

Chapter 30: "Things Don't Always Work Out The Way We Thought They Would"

Skylar Emerson

My hands immediately flied up covering my mouth as I realized what I just said.

I finally told him the L word.

His eyes widened and he took a step back in complete shock. "You...what?" He asked, his voice barely audible.

"I-I love you." My voice cracking at the end.

He looked down at the floor before his eyes met my mine again, tear stained face. "Y-You love me?" He asked as if he wasn't believing me.

"Yes," I began. "I do. I've been dying to tell you for so long, Niall. I love you s-so much it scares me," I breathed. "And I k-know that you don't love me nor you ever will. But seeing you with Amy broke my heart. You were...so r-rude to me." I started sobbing, putting both my hands over my face.

"Sky," Niall said, in such a voice which couldn't get anymore softer. "I didn't know you were feeling that bad about me being around with her. She's nothing but a good friend." He admitted.

I wiped my off the tears from my cheeks as I looked at his eyes. They were hurt. But that didn't compare to the hurt that have been aching inside me.

"Sky, I'm so sorry." He said, he began to walk forward towards me but I stopped him.

"Don't," I said while slowly gasping due to all the crying. I extended a hand before myself to stop him and his face dropped. "Don't come near me." No matter how rude I tried to sound but everything came out as whispers.

"Sky, please listen to me.... Please don't cry," he pleaded. "God, I'm such an ass." He tried to grab my hand but I backed away immediately.

"Don't you dare touch me, Niall," I warned him, looking at his eyes. "You've already h-hurt me." I cracked again, the tears streaming down my face again.

His face dropped to the lowest and his face hold a frown. He looked as if he'd break down crying any soon.

"I've never meant to hurt you, you know that, right? Let me hold you, please." He took a step towards me and I took a step back.

"It was as if I didn't even exist for you. You didn't even care about me from the minute she walked in." I said, hugging myself.

"I know, I'm sorry," His eyes watering. "It's just...she's my friend and I didn't see her in a long time and I got so carried away with her I didn't even notice you felt left out. I swear I would never do it intentionally." His voice cracked as well. "I'm sorry."

I closed my eyes letting the tears run down my cheeks before I took a deep breathe. "Maybe you care for her more than you do for me."

"What?" He asked blankly. "Of course not! That's bullshit, Sky." He said, his voice soft but demanding.

I opened my eyes. "That's bullshit? No, Niall. It's bullshit when you bring your girlfriend home with you but then start ignoring her all on a sudden. It's bullshit when you're being mean to her unnecessarily. It's bullshit when you care for your friend more than her." I cried.