Heaven(ON HOLD)

It was a different feeling in my stomach from the first time when i let Bailey stick his hand in my pants for the first time. we was at the library. bailey was my 1st boyfriend and at the point in life i was in love with him. I would let him explore my body bit by bit and day by day. until one day we was in his room and his parents were gone for the weekend .bailey was my 1st ,and i was his second with his experience i really wondered why sex was important to people i never had the fireworks feeling with bailey it always felt weird. even after 6months i kinda wondered why he never lasted more then 6minutes, I sometimes thought what the hell was i doing.

There's was my neighbor that lived in the same apartment building and I was standing there watching him take off his shirt and showing off his 12 pack .I thought he had the most nicest body ever , he had Carmel skin and was a girls dream .My best friend and I called him "Fine Corey" he lived with some women by the name of Alex. She was the type of girl that you would want to look like when you got older. Alex always had eight hundred dollar purses. She had everything a girl could dream for. She was always well put together , always was hip and fly. but, as for Corey he could just look at you once and you knew he could've had any girl he wanted,he looked like he crawled out a magazine with his bronze skin,chiseled chest, and his wavy hair.

I would at least say Corey was in his twenty's. he wasn't that much older for me to be only 16. I know i had no business looking at Corey. None of my friends couldn't help it. most times when i would come home from school he would be washing his brand new impala,reading or playing music. The whole year they lived there all Corey would do was stare and smile at me. i would always do it back. Until, one day my best friend alize let me borrow her mini skirt. this was the day he looked down from his porch at me and i was headed to my door and he asked,

"Baby girl what's your name?"

apart of me was in complete shock that he actually spoke to me .i answered in a low whisper,

"Heaven"

"heaven,what time your mom coming home form work?"

"she'll be back around eleven"

,I answered wondering why he wanted to know. He nodded and a slight grin appeared on his face and he said"

come up here for a second" he commanded as if i truly known him or was in a relationship with him. i climbed the stairs very scared. when i walked into his apartment i felt like i stepped into twilight zone or something. he sat me on the couch and said

"Heaven i see how you and your friends stare at me and i also know your still in high school, i was gone wait tell you graduated but looking at you your ready to become a women, i also know you not a virgin"

his words were silky-smooth but it didn't matter. ten minutes later the room was spinning as my clothes left my body .i know i had to be crazy to be in the bed that they slept in. i wasn't a freak,whore,or a sex feen. but,i gave in so easy to Corey.

Corey told me to relax and i tired my best to stay calm. His kisses had my body on fire,Corey did something that i would not have expected ,he pinned my legs up and ate me and this was not my 1st time but it never felt this good. bailey had did this a couple times, but it never felt this good before i felt as if i was going to explode. Corey did this for five more minutes then he stopped. i opened my eyes and he was sliding toward me and i reached down to feel him ,instead he stopped me and made it obvious that he new i was scared of his size .i felt the pressure from the second he entered me,not even twenty Strokes later he was panting like a wild animal.

a few seconds later he stopped and side my name

"Heaven" he said very calmly and then he spoke again

"heaven i'm sorry i came so fast but you have a gift between your legs" i just told him that it was fine

"its fine"

i said me and Corey had a short convo about what just happened

"hey heaven this well be our little secret and i think with a gift as good as your i don't think you should just lay down and let no man not give you nothing for your gift " when he said that i kind of thought he was making me sound like i should become a hoe or something "

"Corey i have to go before my mom gets from work"

"alright see you soon heaven"

"okay"

i went home very quiet i thought about what Corey said and i thought that i needed a man not a lil boy like bailey. bailey never had nothing to offer me.

The next day i went to school and i didn't even tell my best friend what i did with Corey. i was walking down the hallway the hallway when bailey walked up to

"babe why didn't you answer my calls"

"i was busy with homework"

"well can i come over today to taste some of that sweet heaven" when he said that to i just wanted to snap but i just stop and took a deep breath

"i have some things to do with a homework project I'll call you later"i walked away and i never felt so guilty for cheating on bailey for somebody who didn't last longer then him,i wanted to go home and cry i ignored my best friend the whole day.

i went home and i was home alone since my my was at work tonight later then she usually works so i was in my room and i was feeling a little better so i went to the mirror and stood on the dresser and i took of my underwear to see what was so great about what's between my legs, as i was in thought i heard i knock at the door and when i went to see who it was i was a little shock and scared because it was Corey standing there,

I was in slight shock to see this Handsome man standing in front of me, he smiled and said "hey Heaven i have a surprise for you...come with me" he demanded i didn't no what to do i walk with him back to his apartment and he told me to sit down on the couch i sat there and waited he finally came back and spoke "here you go sweetheart" i looked at the envelope and opened it and i gasped so loud Corey look worried it was a little silence and i was the first to speak "umm..what is this for" "i told you you have a gift and if your willing to let me taste you ill have this for you"he said holding up the envelope.

I stood there and contemplated on if i should give it back , i felt like a prostitute . I felt dirty as if I'm having sex for money . when i tired to hand it back he said " NO Heaven i don't want it back i told you if you give me something I'll give you something in return. I just simply reply "okay"

Once Corey left i just locked the door and laid down and thought about this complete 360 change I'm doing. I feel so bad about not telling my best friend what i have did but I'll tell her sooner then later i just hope she don't find out on her on..