WINTER CURSE [endless curse]

CHAPTER 1 [Lost]

This is... The third time i see someone i fall in love with.. Die, in front my eyes while the snow falling down. I don't know how to make my curse disappear or even make it more lighter to handle...

Her bloody corpse laying down the road, i was standing there like an idiot watching her soul leave her body slowly, i can't even think straight no more... My body trembling when i slowly hold her uanlive body in my arm, i was sobbing really hard while the crowd Surrounding me.

Why? Why should i have this curse? Did i ever do anything wrong in the past? But why this curse? I can't handle this anymore, I'm so done with this fucking curse i can't handle losing another person anymore, i have to stop this stupid curse but i can't, this curse will haunt me forever and i have to accept my fate, should i be heartless? I don't want to lose someone again this time.

When i was standing in my lover grave alone i hear someones calling my name

" HARUKA! "

quickly i look back at that person and i see my old bestfriend, Yose.

" I'm so worried about you, are you okay? Did you already go to therapist? I hope you're fine.. " She said with worried tone

I just starring at her with sore eyes, i don't know what to answer because i only in my room sobbing but not go to therapist or something, isn't that normal? I just... Still shock even this not my first time but it's still hurts, a lot.

" N- no.. I was- i always in my room.. " I said to her

She looks even more concern and she hold my hands, her hands Rescouring me from a ton of sadness and I'm feeling safe besides her, her voice calming me down even though I'm in the edge of depression... and then she hugs me really tight, i can feel her warm that make me even more safe...

" Thank you... For reassuring me. " I said with trembling voice

" As your best friend I'll do my best to comforting you. " She said calmly

She look at me in the eyes, her eyes was filled with unspoken word and promise, i wish i could love her but no I don't want to lose her, seeing her happy with her decision is much better than seeing her die in front of me.

I always call myself a murder because they're died because of me, i always blame myself and my heart that always easy to fall in love, i already try my best being heartless but it's not easy for me and ended up fall for someone again and make them dies for nothing, i hate it.

This is my family curse, they say the one of the new born baby that have black hair and white winter tone skin, will get winter curse.

Winter curse was a curse that makes you can't fall in love, once you fall in love the person you fall in love with will died in the pass three months, either they will get heart attack or car crash or get crashed by a car, and that will happen at winter season.