Why do I feel like I'm always shunned and tossed to the side by all of mankind? I don't know, i never really know anymore. I could sit here and smile and laugh with people and shrug it off whilst saying "I'm fine, don't worry!" But all that I feel is the sharp pain of the hurtful lies i spill from my tongue, unable to handle the sheer guilt that I'd feel from telling others deceitful words that they happily indulge with trustful smiles. I can't handle guilt, I can't handle dying, and I can't handle living. All of these things are painful, I wish I were just a computer, unfeeling and built to listen. I just wanted to be loved and cherished without an issue. Am I just a defect in the system? I'll never know. I just hope that I can truly be happy forever, no matter where I'm at.
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a vent
RandomI don't really have an actual reason to why I feel like this is the best way for comfort, but if you wish to make fun of me and taunt me, I'm the best clown for that wish.
