WILD RIDE (Rafe Cameron x OC) *COMPLETE*

Chapter Thirty-Seven (Alana)

CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN

Alana

*Spicy warning*

"Why the fuck do you have a gun?" Rafe asks me and I feel myself shrinking. Melting away from him. How do I tell him that I was terrified he'd try to kill my brother and that I needed to protect John B at any possible measure?

I'm just as bad as Rafe...

"I'm alone here and there's too many people on this island I don't trust and too many people who don't trust me." It's not a lie but it's also not the true reason to why I've got this gun on me right now.

Rafe nods and places that gun on top of my dresser next to his own. His hands envelope my body again and he tilts my chin to look up at him. He towers over me since he's literally a foot taller than I am.

"No one will hurt you as long as I'm here. You understand that, right? Baby, I'd kill for you. I know that might scare you and shit... It scares me too. All the shit I'm capable of and all the ways I'd hurt someone if you just asked me to. But I'm in this for you. I'm down for anything so long as you're down with me."

I nod. "I know.. But let's not.. Let's not go down that path. We started that and look what happened. I don't like this version of you."

He blinks and swallows hard. "I'm protecting you."

"Protect me in other ways then, Rafe. Because I'm not going to sit up all night and wait for you to come home just for you to tell me you killed someone, dumped a body, or anything else like that. I can't be with a man who I'm constantly terrified of."

"Y-You're terrified of me?"

Fuck. I didn't mean it like that. "I meant... Terrified of something happening to you or you doing something to someone who doesn't deserve it."

"No.." He backs up. "You're terrified of me." Panic rests in his face and I grab him by the wrists. "Don't touch me." He snatches his hands away like he had before. Fuck.. We're taking a hundred steps backward now.

"Rafe I'm not scared of you. I'm scared of what you'll do to yourself if you keep this up." I sit down on my bed and he stands there just blinking at me. "Sit. You don't have to touch me but just sit down."

He shakes his head as he paces and bites his nail.

"Rafe Edward." Rafe looks at me like a deer in the headlights. "Yeah, I said it. Don't look at me like that either. Now sit on the fucking bed so I can try to talk to you like a human."

He obeys me and clears his throat as he sits down beside me.

"Have you ever tried to change a lightbulb in a dark room?" I ask him and he shakes his head silently. "It's almost impossible right? Because there's too much darkness. So you try to see if there's any bit of light coming through so you can bring the light back. Rafe, if you become a darkened room I cannot walk through the pitch-black darkness to put light back into you. You need to do that yourself and right now there's still time for you to become light again."

Tears fall silently from his eyes. He looks up and breathes out. "Are... Are you offering to help me? To... Truly help me?"

"I love you, Rafe. Even if everyone thinks I'm an idiot for loving you. I want to help you and I want to save you from this person you're becoming. I can't stand it."

"I told my Dad I needed help. I told him I wasn't okay and I confessed it all to him. Everything that's wrong up in here," He taps his temple. "And he told me to man up."

My chest pangs with sadness and horror that Ward wouldn't do a damn thing to help his son who begged for fucking help. Who took the first major step by admitting he needs help. Ward rejected him of a clear mind. Or a normal fucking life.

Now I'm glad I fucked up his truck when I went to Charleston, well, technically that was JJ who did it. But I don't regret or feel bad now. If I'd known yesterday that Ward had done that to Rafe I would have left the truck there and told him to deal with it and that I wouldn't be dropping a dime on it.

"Men are allowed to have feelings too." I brush his hair away from his face. "I know you don't like to open up. Feelings scare and you're not good at expressing them but I want to help you in any way that you allow me. Avocado."

Rafe smiles and instantly presses a kiss to my lips. I can taste the booze on his tongue but it doesn't bother me. I wonder if he can taste the shots that I took earlier too. I can't help but moan as he kisses me, feeling his body grinding against mine and each movement making me wish my brother wasn't currently hiding in a tree outside my bedroom window right now to hide from Rafe.

He starts kissing my neck and up to my ear and groans. "You texted Kelce earlier..." He says in a purr. "I told him to tell you that if you were lying about what you were doing today that I wouldn't do that thing with my tongue you like."

My heart drops into my damn core. The beating of my heart matching the throbbing between my legs now. Instantly my mouth and core both water simultaneously at the memories of what Rafe can do with his tongue.

"Don't punish me with that." I tell him faintly as he kisses along my jawline. His hand starting to unbutton my shorts. "I don't think I can live without that."

"Bad girls don't get good things." He replies before finding my lips again. "Fuck, you taste amazing."

I can't help but moan as he says that. "Rafe.. Please."

The words escape me and then I look out my window at the tree and realize JJ, Sarah, and John B probably have a clear view of this. I sit up and close the curtains. "Boats go by... don't want anyone to see anything." Rafe didn't ask or say anything so my sudden confession makes him raise a brow but only for a moment.

"You're so eager tonight, Bonnie." He says with a smirk as he pushes me back gently onto the bed. Unzipping his shorts and kissing me as he frees himself. "Get those fucking shorts off, baby."

Without hesitation I do as he asks.

"I gotta be quick.. Barry is outside."

I sit straight up. "Barry?!"

"Don't say his name anymore, you'll make me go soft." He rolls his eyes. "Yes, he's outside. Looking for John B. But clearly you're here alone.."

"Yeah, I am. Tell Barry to go home so I can fuck my boyfriend in peace." I demand and he suddenly grabs his phone and texts Barry.

A few moments go by and I hear the sound of his bike leaving my yard. "Better?"

"Much."

I pull him back toward me and he smirks before landing another kiss to my lips, holding it there as he slides himself into me. I gasp loudly before whimpering into his mouth. Not once did Rafe break our kiss.

No matter how much I was panting, cursing, and moaning like a fucking fool. He stayed calm and tender with me. Each thrust he'd grunt a little more until I could feel it becoming the end. His thrusts came harder and faster and his breathing was quickening as well.

Once he finished he got up and got dressed. Looking at his phone and throwing his head back. "Fuck, Dad needs me home. Wants to talk to me about shit. You coming home tonight?" He asks me and I nod. "Try not to be too late, okay?"

"Yes, sir." I salute him as I search for my shorts.

Rafe leaves and I head back outside. Whistling for John B, JJ, and Sarah who all come down from the tree.

"What the fuck took so long?" John B scolds me.

Sarah gasps. "Oh. My. God. You've got post sex glow."

JJ turns away and hops back into the hot tub. Not saying a word to me or anyone else. I tell John B I've got to finish my packing before I head back to Tannyhill tonight but that I'd update him on everything I possibly can. I hug my brother before heading back to the lion's den.