𝕽𝖊𝖑𝖎𝖆𝖇𝖑𝖊 (bxb)

CHAPTER 34

Nick's POV

            "This can't be happening he...he has cancer and I didn't knew ? Does he knew all this time and didn't even told me or you. Why ? Was I being not a good mom he considered me his best friend and how could I not know . "  " Aunty , It's not that what you think you are so much more than that you are the most perfect mother ever and I didn't knew either who knows even if he also knew or not . Let's wait for him to wake up and pray for him " .  "Yea honey I'll make call to his brother and inform him " . " Yes I'll wait here for him to wake up ".
            Hours passed by there was no sign of him being back in his senses . I patiently wait outside his room for an update , the doctor was on round to do check ups once the checkup were done I was allowed to go inside . I Bite the bullet and pushed past the doors to enter the room where the nurse was feeding him his fluids through the salines .
"How is he ?" I asked the nurse . He is doing great just more rest and then he'll be fine  said the nurse . I gave her a small smile and nodded the nurse took her exit and the room fell silent. I took his hands in mine and sat beside the bed . Emotions were running high right now all I wanted was to make him feel safe from anything and everything. "Baby" I said running my fingers through his hairs I felt little movement in his hands as his was signaling something. " Yes? , you need something " I frowned my eyebrows. He was trying to say something it was in low voice and it didn't sound clearly to me . To hear the sound clear I go close to him he whispered my name faintly ."Yes baby" I replied my voice cracking. I blurted out whatever was going in my mind right now "What happened exactly I was so confused and scared when you wasn't replying my texts or calls and suddenly I got call from your mom that you are in ICU , my heart sank seeing you like this and I promise I'm not going anywhere" I said planting a kiss on his forehead.

Shashank POV

         When I regained my consciousness I was in other room room which was not familiar with me . I look around and realise I was in hospital and the doctor was checking up on me . "Oh Mr.Murray how you feeling does your pelvic area hurts " . As there was a bit pain but I nodded no to his question " Good here's more medicine and your fluids since you underwent surgery you can't have solids so we are feeding you on fluids as it is easier for you and if you need any help please call this miss she is your assigned nurse . That's it I'll visit you tomorrow " . As he took his exit someone entered the room I was too tried to open my eyes and look so I kept my eyes shut  and rest . The latter who entered took my hands in theirs the touch felt familiar to me and comfort runs over me . I opened my eyes asap and saw my heart seating infront of me he looks so devastated . I whispered his name faintly and he come closer to hear me more clearly.
  
       "Yesterday I had huge arguement with my dad and I was threatened to threw out of the house he he even tried to punch me. I went outside as I couldn't stand to breathe or even stay in the same room as he is in and went for walk around walking for an hour or two I took the bench in the park. Everything was well till I overthink my thought my thoughts told me I was a shit and didn't deserve to live and I walk infront of the coming car and it hit me with much force than expected. Next thing I know I was in ICU " . "How did on earth you thought to walk infront of the car baby " . " I I thought it was best to end my life !" "By what by walk in front of the car to end your life just like that did you once think of me or your mom or sanice why did you even think of it baby , I'm here I'll always be here for you my love don't even think about it again my heart will not be able to take it all " . " What you want me to do I have nothing on me I don't have anything I'm nothing but just a coward who is worth for nothing " . "Seriously baby who told you that you worth more than what you think you are I mean how a coward when you had so much bravery to face what you gone through and I say no one no one in my life I have seen as brave as you are , you have gone through so much yet the smiles of yours never fade your eternal kindness and love is what people makes people love and adore you . " .  " I don't even deserve love  and that's why all this things happened to me maybe it's god sign that I'm bad person I'm bad child a bad brother who can never lived up to his father expectations can never be a good friends or now can I be a good boyfriend to you Nick I was so selfish yesterday " .
 
         " It's okay you don't need to be sorry you just weren't in right state of mind but please communicate with me I'm your boyfriend and I do truly care of you I can't imagine a shit happening to you ever and you saying all this makes me question my ability to be a good boyfriend to you. Shas I want you , I want us to be together not just now but forever and I don't give a shit if had to kill me or  anyone or to go to any extend just to be with you " .  " Oh honey no violence please I have enough of it " I chuckle and kiss his cheeks .