It felt like it was just yesterday when I met him. It felt like it was just yesterday when I fell in love with him.
Yes, I loved him.
I loved him even though he shouted at me, even though he looked down on me most of the times. I loved him even with all those sharp words he threw at me.
I loved him despite all of that because every time I look into his eyes, I knew deep down that there was kindness behind it all.
I first saw him in my first official volleyball match. He was incredibly tall and he walked with confident strides fit that of a king. He was intimidating. Like, really.
But even then, his sharp eyes that looked down upon our team glinted with sadness and loneliness. I never understood it at that time. He was an amazing volleyball player, what could he possibly be sad about? Why would he be lonely? He even have great team mates who play very well on the court. So why?
That was my question then.
We lost against their team and I swore to myself to beat him. At that time, I hated him so much. I hated how he and his team won that easily. I hated how he acted all high and mighty after that match. I hated it.
I hated Kageyama Tobio. I hated him and his ego.
That was what I thought.
Then in my first year in high school it was a total shock to find out that the one whom I swore to beat would be in the same team as I do. It was comical, and it makes me smile every time I remember it.
The third years were nice and respectable. They welcomed us first years warmly, well mostly.
It was then that my hate for that obnoxious king was at its peak. I still couldn't accept the fact that I was about to be in the same team as him. It was ridiculous. I was so set upon my goal to beat him, and then to find out that I would be working with him?
It was obvious that we'd be quarreling, and we did just like that. When the captain, Daichi Sawamura-senpai arrived and saw us both at each others' throats, he made us work together as a team to go against the other first years who were just as obnoxious as this king.
It was the worst punishment I've ever received in my entire life. I didn't even know how I managed to survive through that. Yeah, how did I even--?
Ah... I remember, the irritating four-eyed guy called Tsukishima Kei. He made fun of Kageyama in front of me, well after he insulted me.
His insults towards me felt nothing compared to the mockery he did to Kageyama.
Somehow that made my blood boil.
It made me want to do my best-est for Kageyama. To prove that four-eyed jerk that he was wrong about the King I knew.
I never understood why I felt that way at that time, and neither did I try to.
Ever since then, I was content and happy with the way things were going between the two of us and our new team mates.
There were times that we had our downfalls as a team, and yet through it all Kageyama wouldn't have me sulking over it.
He would hit me in the head, shout at me, insult me, but I know that deep down he meant to comfort and not to hurt.
That was just his own odd way of showing his concern.
And of course our victories, it was one of those extremely overwhelming moments where I would occasionally catch him smiling.
He was rarely smiling, and even when he does, it was always directed at the ball.
It made my heart swell every time I saw him smiling around the team.
It made me feel happy. Though that word is an understatement for what I was truly feeling. It was indescribable.
It was a feeling that made my heart pound, and my stomach churn that it makes me want to scream at the top of my lungs that I love Kageyama and his heart-warming smiles.
It was then I realized that I loved the King more than as a friend.
And it scared me. The fact that I loved Kageyama more than just a team mate scared me more than the fact that I was in love with another guy.
I was scared of my own feelings. The horror of doing something that'll hurt Kageyama was unbearable.
And so I avoided him.
It was stupid, but somehow it is for the best.
Kageyama was right. I was nothing but an annoying idiot that irrationally acts without logic.
Somehow, this way I was actually doing something that I have thought about long and hard enough. Right now, I was doing something right.
Kageyama might misunderstood, he might even think that it was selfish of me to drift away without giving him a proper explanation. Or maybe that was me expecting too much. Knowing Kageyama, it might even make him even happier if I were to avoid him. It'll cause him less trouble.
It'll be for the best.
And I was right. Time flew by so fast, right? It feels like it was just yesterday that we joined the volleyball club and now he'll be married to a woman who could give him the happy family I would never be able to give him.
Hey, I have just one favor to ask of you. Please take care of Kageyama's heart. The heart I never had the chance of taking care of. The heart that I always longed to beat for me. The heart of the man I always loved.
Tobio might find me disgusting if he finds out about all these, and so I write this letter from me to you because I know that you are a woman with a kind heart. A woman that truly deserve Kageyama's love and care.
So that was the Kageyama Tobio that I had loved with all my heart. I hope you would love him all through out his flaws. He usually gives a scary impression, right? But he was just serious all the time, and he might claim that he couldn't do a whole lot of things but he just lacks the motivation to exert efforts on things that aren't related to volleyball. He's a bit hilarious when he's like that.
And also, he likes to have his pork curry with an egg on top. He always have it that way.
-Hinata Shoyo
PS: Congratulations, and I wish the both of you all the best :) Tell Kageyama I'm sorry I couldn't go to the wedding v(=∩_∩=)ﾌ
*END*
A/N:
Ha-ha. That was a bit rushed. So yeah, it was a letter from Hinata to Kageyama's bride-to-be. You can shoot me. I was just venting out a whole lot of stress and whoa it's surprising I finished something in here. Toodles!
-Pervy
