It's Not Right But It's Okay - A Klaine Fanfiction

Chapter 1 - Goodbye

CHAPTER 1

GOODBYE

KURT’S POV

Saying goodbye to a loved one is always hard, especially your first love. I may not be leaving Blaine forever, but it’s going to feel like it. “I’ll miss you,” he whispered into my ear, kissing it gently afterwards. “I’ll miss you too,” I replied.

I hugged Blaine, it seemed to last forever. When hugging Blaine I always feel the usual stuff anyone feels around their lover, your heart skips a beat and then it feels like it’s beating a million times per second, but his hugs are different. I feel calm, like the kind of calm you feel when you’re about to fall asleep, and everything’s quiet, and all you can hear is your own deep breathing. I feel like I’m the happiest man on earth because I have the most perfect boyfriend, I feel as if nothing could ever ruin this mood and I just wish it could last forever, that I could just spend every waking minute in his arms.

Blaine was the one to pull out of the hug first; a few tears were rolling down his face. “I love you so much Kurt,” he took a deep breath, like he was nervous about something. I placed my hand on his shoulder, hoping that it felt comforting. “When you’re in New York, Kurt, if you find another man, please don’t run off with him and leave me, I don’t think I could stand it.” I couldn’t help but smile; this has obviously worried him before. It might sound cruel but there’s something about Blaine worrying about me or me finding someone else, that gives me joy. Just the thought that there’s somebody looking out for me, worrying about me leaving them for someone else or losing sleep over me makes me happy, it makes me feel loved, I’d never had that before I met Blaine.

“I love you too Blaine and I don’t think I could leave you, EVER. You’re my first and only love, you always will be,” I replied as I reached down to hold both of his hands in mine. This would’ve been the moment where Blaine and I kiss passionately to express our love for each other but we’re in the middle of an airport and not everybody is ok with gay people. Blaine and I have made love plenty of times over the past few weeks anyway.

“Everybody catching the 1 O’clock plane to New York please make your way to terminal A,” a cool female voice sounded throughout the airport. I sighed, letting go of Blaine’s hands and looking at the floor. “Well, bye,” I said looking back up and into his green eyes. “Bye,” Blaine said, unexpectedly leaning in and pressing his soft lips against mine.  It didn’t last very long, not long enough to stop and appreciate it.

He pulled away nearly as soon as it started, I couldn’t help but let a few tears roll down my cheek. “I’ll ring you when I get there,” I said as I turned around and grabbed my bag. I turned to quickly say goodbye to dad and Carroll, dad was crying. After, I turned to Rachel and Finn, who were waiting for me to finish saying my goodbyes. “Are you ready to go?” I asked. They nodded and patted my back in what they probably thought was a ‘comforting’ way.

Rachel and Finn are lucky; they’re not leaving a loved one behind. I mean, I guess that like me, they’re leaving behind friends and family, but they’re not leaving behind each other. Blaine and I have been dreading this moment all summer, I knew it would be sad but I didn’t think it would feel this bad, especially because we’re still going to keep in touch and visit each other whenever we can. I start to feel empty inside as I make my way to the terminal with Rachel and Finn, getting further and further away from my one and only love, Blaine. I think it’s mainly the thought that I’m barely going to see him this year that’s making feel so empty already. I seriously don’t know how long I’m going to be able to put up with his.

“It’s okay Kurt,” Rachel said, clapping a hand to my back as we reached the terminal. I showed the lady my ticket and walked through the door and down the aisle that leads to the plane. I took a deep breath, trying to stay strong, trying to keep as many tears in as I could, I’ll cry when I get to my apartment, in New York. It’s still sinking in the fact that I’m finally moving to New York to make my dreams come true. My dad was absolutely ecstatic when we found out I got into NYADA. Blaine’s reaction was less enthusiastic, I think he was hoping that maybe I wouldn’t get in or just choose to spend the year in Ohio instead. I would love to spend the year with him but if I put this off for too long, it’s never going to happen. I have to be determined and really set my mind to it if I want to be a star, on Broadway.