People think that because you have money then you should be happy,because to them money can buy happiness but that's just a excuse people use to not feel bad about themselves for not checking in on you for not asking a simple question are you ok? It's a simple question but mean a lot to a person just to know that someone cares and see you but everyone is so caught in their own problems that they don't realize that the person they are confiding in need a confidant too they need someone to just ask them are you ok? I needed a confidant when i felt like giving up,when i was drowning in my own dark thoughts but no one notice they were too busy to see how hard it was to keep smiling behind the pain when all i wanted was to just curl up in a ball and cry.
I couldn't afford a therapist and if i did I wouldn't do it either because it's not easy to trust someone and show them that vulnerable side of you not with the risk of betrayal so my only confidant was my diary when my head would be filled with all these dark thoughts i turned to my trustee confidant my diary and I didn't have to fear that it'll get out and i felt better every time i let my thoughts out in my diary writing down your thoughts takes a weight off your shoulders bit by bit and that's what i told all my patients.
Hey i am silver and i have been through some shit that would make you cry but it is what shape me into the woman i am today a renowned therapist who can really relate with my clients because i have been there feeling alone hell i am still there only difference is i can help people like me i hear about all these therapist acting like they know what you've been through when they barely scratch the surface and only out here to get your money for me this is person my patients are personal to me,the money is just a bonus.
Let's get back to the session,so my patient is a 15 year old Anna Garcia who struggle with low self esteem,anxiety and depression. I first started treating Anna a month ago i have seen a lot of progress with her and soon enough she wont need me anymore "Tell me Anna do you still write your thoughts down in your diary" i ask her as she sip on her chamomile tea that i made for her which is a tea that help calms your nerves and with her anxiety she needs it as i said before my patients comfort is my top priority "yes every day and it makes me feel lighter every time" she replied smiling,I remember my first time writing in my diary i swore i was gonna finish the book "i told you it would help and how have you been feeling" i ask her " pretty good lately and happy" she smiles causing a smile of my own "ok Anna i want you go home and write five things your thankful for and I'll see you next week ok" i told as we finish up.
It was now five pm and my last client just left i lock up and call my best friend tia as i got into my car
Phone convo
Twinem😫🥰❤️: hey silvie
Me: hey just leaving work and wondering if you want me to bring you something to eat at the shop
Twinem😫🥰❤️: ugh yessss
I pull up at tia hair and nail salon and brought in both our food and greet everyone and took a seat since she was doing someone hair "how was work babe?you look tire" she said looking at me in concern "tiring" i simply said and took a bite of my vegan birria tacos when i heard gasp and turn to see what the fuss was about when i saw this tall glass of chocolate milk strolling in "yo tia mia you think you can fit me in i got a party to tonight"he ask in his deep husky voice know how tia in i answer before she could " she'll be with you after she eat" he stared at me for a good minute the nod,the minute she finish the girl hair she collapsed beside me and start to eat while I replied to a few emails when i felt eyes on me and look up to see the guy staring at me and i stared back not backing down before tia interrupt " oh babe this is Jaden,taj older brother,jay this is my best friend/sister silver" she introduced,taj is her fiancé of 4 years whose like a older brother to me.
Tia took pictures of Jaden neatly done twist and add them to her page,it was now only Jaden and i since tia was getting her stuff from the office and everyone had already gone home "so your the doctor that help the crazies" he chuckled,but i only felt rage since i am one of those crazies "they aren't crazies they are people just like everyone else just different than the rest" i snap as a memory flashed through me,holding his hands up in surrender he apologize "sorry sorry that's a good thing your doing I respect that" still a bit upset i just purse my lip as tia came out looking between us"ready to go" she ask and i nod on our way to my car Jaden called to tia from his car " you and yo girl coming to the party tonight" tia turn to me with a questioning look and i shrug letting her know it's her choice "yeh we'll see you there" she shouts back.
After warming up a big bowl of cashew Alfredo tia and i was in our beauty room looking getting ready. Tia was dressed in a pick shorts romper paired with her pink air force,pink bob while i was in a black crop top hoodie that revealed my navel piercing paired with some washed out blue ripped high waisted jeans shorts along with my brown knee top boots.
It took us half hour to reach the destination and it was really packing causing my anxiety to flare up so i let tia go while i gave myself a pep talk and affirmation. I was vaping a bit when I heard a knock on my window and saw Jaden so i roll down the window "you ok doc" he ask with concern and i nod " yes just a little overwhelmed" i told him as i got out locking my car and he grab on yo my arms causing butterflies to flutter in my stomach I swear.
He led us over to where tia and taj was along with some other people "silver wah gwan" he said trying to talk Jamaican but it sounds funny with his accent tia and i are Jamaican and taj always try to talk like us "me dh yah eno bro" i replied and Jaden look at me in surprise "never knew you were Jamaican" he state handing a cup with vodka and ice " yup" i shrug.
I was laughing at something Jaden said when i saw this thick dark skin girl storming over here "oh shit" i heard someone muttered "so this is your new bitch huh" he shouts pointing at me and i dress back to avoid confrontation when she turns to me " just know he'll come back to me he always do" he hissed and storm off "real yamhead" i said to tia as we both laugh while they look at us in confusion cause more giggles to erupt. I bob my head to music when a dancehall song came on and tia and shared a look and twerking on each but taj start grinding on her but I continue dancing when i felt someone behind me turning around i saw Jaden, i gave him a smirk and start to throw it back on him.
It was now 5 in the morning and i thank god that my first client is at 12 and i am just now leaving the party Jaden followed me to my car after tia left with taj " so can i see you again" he ask and I raised my brow at him " uhm I don't know me nuh wah yuh ooman dem fight me" i told him and he gave a confused look poor soul em nuh understand one fuck me just say "why" i ask simply " cause I enjoyed your company and i like you silver" he replied honestly no sah this serious cause em all call me by me government "uhm I'll text you" i told him as we went our separate ways and no me nuh drunk me only had 4 drink and me tolerance higher than that.
