(Not) Written in the Stars!

Chapter 29 (Alexia): I do believe in fate now!

"I've created a monster!" is the last I barely hear from Gabriel between a groan, a chuckle, and an exhausted, sensual murmur in my ear. We are spent and sated after a whole night of passionate lovemaking.

I am happy, finally happy and at peace. The whole situation with my sperm donor and Daisy happened almost two months ago, and we are falling into a calm, marvelous routine.

It took us a while to get to this point. After I left the hospital, we were both dealing with the emotional consequences. Ty was holding back and barely interacting with me. Guilt was consuming him. I was paranoid; even knowing the threat was eliminated, part of my brain kept sending me flight signals.

For a few weeks, we were in a very uncomfortable spot.

Poor Sammy couldn't really understand the weird energy around us. Thanksgiving came, and even though I joined the MC celebration, I only stayed for a little while and then hid back in the house. Ty had been sleeping in the house's guest room, distancing himself from me, and I hated it, but at the same time, I kind of got it. I was flinching around people if anyone was standing too close.

I was back to being the reclusive, serious Alexia.

Then, Olson called me and pushed some sense into me. We evidently needed outside help. The kidnapping and the accident added to my accumulated trauma, and even though Ty was used to violent moments, the incident rattled him to the core. We weren't handling it correctly and unconsciously were hurting each other in the process.

So, before Thanksgiving weekend was over, I shyly asked Ty to take a walk with me.

"Thank you for meeting me. I've missed you," I said honestly because every fiber of my being was yearning for Ty's touch. I needed him to hug me and cover me with his strong arms, a promise that we would finally be safely together.

He didn't waste a second. The moment he looked into my eyes, he ate up the space between us and covered me with his body. I could feel his erratic heartbeat as he rested his chin on my head.

"I failed you, and I don't feel deserving of your love, but rest assured that I treasure those words you mouthed to me that day. I felt like dying when I saw you leaving with that monster. I wanted to protect you and didn't do my job. So, I get it if you don't want anything to do with me."

"Gabriel," I murmured into his chest, "I don't blame you; my distance has nothing to do with you. On the contrary, I know you almost lost your life because of my dad. He is gone, but I feel like his ghost will haunt me forever, and I am not the right person to be around. I don't want to disappoint you or Sammy. You guys deserve the world, and I feel so empty and scared all over again."

"No, love, you could never disappoint us. You are the heart of our family. Without you, we are withering. We conquered our demons. We got rid of the threats that hunt us. If we separate, we are letting them win."

"I know, I feel the same. I really want to finally enjoy our peace, but I can't do it alone. I am back to having nightmares and feeling anxious. Olson suggested we go together to couples therapy to help us work through the experience we endured together. If this is too mushy for you, I won't push it," I said that part almost in an inaudible whisper.

I felt his arms tightening even more around my body like he wanted to keep me there, molded to his body forever.

"Let's do it! I already embraced the mushy feelings. By having my princess and Pixie in my life, my tin, cold, and hollowed exterior has warmed up, and I can even feel a heart beating under my armor," said Ty with a delicious grin.