Night Time is when it hits the hardest. Ive question myself for 17 Years over and over why can't I have that special someone that matches my energy. Don't get me wrong not every female has been bad but I do have to admit I've picked my own poison. I've been in 6 serious relationships, working on # 7. At times I wonder am I cursed because my parents wasn't together or is it just not meant for me to be with someone on that level. I have been manipulated, cheated on, hell all the above. I used to question God why the Love I put in a female is never returned equally. One day I had a vision that i had got set up by this one female that I was deeply In Love with. I woke up sweating and gasping for air only to realize that my conscious had got the best of me. I know I'm not perfect but neither one of us is that's why I try my best to make an imperfect female a Goddess. I grew up in a household with mostly females so of course I value a lady Worth. I cry out so much to my girl now to the point I feel like she hears me but yet have understood why I give my all regardless mad or glad. I Have triggers that I'm still facing but over the years since Jakeena broke my heart the key ones I have total control over now.....
