Hello !
I don't really remember what I wrote last time in my other book but I will start over to make things more clear !
I'm not forcing anyone to believe me but that's just my story, you're free to think what you want as long as you're being respectful.
When me and Hyun met each others we didn't interact that much, I'm shy so I don't really pay attention to what people were saying on my profil, I won't leak my main but I have some friends not that much but atleast some.
Hyun would sometimes but not always say something on my profil I wasn't always answering but sometimes I did, it bought us somehow "close" to each others.
One day I wanted to go over my fear and ask people to be my friends so I made an announcement and asked who wanted to be my friend under it I said I didn't have socials for the moment, Hyun still asked me for my socials so I just downloaded Instagram and Discord since it was famous back then, he didn't have discord at the moment so I just followed him on Instagram.
We talked everydays not that much but still did, and after some times we were inseparable, we would tell each others everything and anything but with time he would call me petnames making me uncomfortable since I'm just 13.. and he was 16, I tried making him stop by telling him but he wouldn't, he said he would but he never did.
So I distanced myself a bit not texting first or sometimes I wouldn't answer his texts until he understands, after some times I thought he finally understood since he stopped calling me petnames so I finally replied to him, but it felt odd, anyway we talked again and everything was good until he started asking me weird things but mostly tasks.
Like telling someone that or doing this to someone else, I didn't understand at first but it wasn't something big what he asked me so I did it without thinking, the more he asked me stuff the more it became weird and weird I tried saying no but that wouldn't stop him he would still find something else to ask me less worse but still weird.
I tried asking him why he was asking me those kind of things but he just skipped the question, we went on like that and one day I just couldn't take it and got mad for the things he was asking, he told me it's normal for a girl young like me to do those kind of things and if I was to ask my parents they would answer with "we did the same things but a bit later" he told me I couldn't tell anyone because that would mean I'm growing too fast, and I believed him.
I mostly believed him because I love growing and since he's my friend, each days I had a different task :
- Insulting someone
- Pushing an old lady on the road
- Bullying someone at school
- Mocking someone's body
- Writing slurs on the teacher's desk
- Stealing money
- Doing illegal things and blaming someone else
- Accusing a man for raping a little girl
- Ruining someone's life
- Masturbing
- Sending him pictures of my body
- Moaning for him
- Calling him "daddy"
- Acting like a slave towards him
- Cutting myself in a video which I would send to him after
That's just a small list I can't fit everything in it, but don't worry I didn't do everything, I was too scared. He would ask to call even though I was uncomfortable but I had no say in it, he sometimes would ask me to show him my 🐱 in Facetime meanwhile he would take screenshots without my consent.
It stayed this way for days, weeks, months until a hater pop out of no where it was after he did a voice reveal, his first voice reveal, I think it was a girl ? She would mock his voice and hate him for it, the first thing he did was swearing at me because he thought I was the one who made that account to get revenge for trying to make me a "woman" before everyone else.
I said it wasnt me but he didn't really believe me, I still felt bad for him and tried to comfort him, after that accident he became harsh and cold with me barely talking to me and the only times he did was to make fun of me and cuss me, and to the extrem said he would rape me if I don't shut up and grow up.
I let him go until he came back like nothing happened, we talked again and after some time he told me he was the one who made that account only to get attention since he was insecure about his voice I thought it was wrong but he told me it's totally ok if it's for a good cause and he would never do it again, it was the only time he would do such a thing. I'm not that stupid but still let go.
He made me promise to never tell anyone about this but he grew distant again, this time not answering my texts only leaving me on seen ignoring me, ghosting me, everything. I stopped texting him but he would be mean if I did with time I couldn't take it and told him I didn't want to be his friend anymore.
It was probably a mistake, he forced me to stay his friend or he would make rumors about me and I was scared so I gave up and accepted, to "punish me" for my bad behavior he would force me to touch myself in front of him talking dirty,it didn't happen that much but it would last long.
I got scared of men and developped traumas because of him, he would tell me to whoop myself with a belt and show him my wounds and scars, it was horrible and scary, I didn't tell anyone since he had my passwords and would do worse if he was to catch me telling someone anything.
He would control and watch me everydays not letting me any spaces, I was scared I couldn't sleep straight or eat for weeks, he got Discord in between and added me there since it's more "safe" for us. After that we would call regularly talking to me as if I was a dog or he would dirty talk to me, if I ended up crying he would scream at me saying I'm useless and worthless.
It became impossible to live like that and I was too scared and embarassed to for help luckly my friend realized there was something wrong and helped me, I first distanced myself slowly to not make it suspicious, then I blocked him everywhere, that's how things ended.
I wouldn't say it's been a while now but it's not that recent either, it's probably unbeliveable but I blame no one. You can believe me you can not believe that's your choice. But I do find it weird how you believe someone but not another for saying something in the same category. His "irl friend" seems to griddy about how she apparently "reconciled" Hyun and Coco ? What if she forced them ( Coco ) because if it was me I would never try to talk it out with someone like that and she keeps bragging about it, it won't change anything though. She could be saying lies since the beggining but no one would care.
Or she could be Hyun in desguise because why would out of no where Hyun's "irl friend" comes and save the day when we barely knew her and she claims to know him irl, that's weird how she says it only now to be honest, that's just how I feel about the situation don't take it to heart. And Hyun wants to commit suicide ? He probably won't and just wants us to pity him, he did the same thing with me and came back right after acting like nothing happened.
If he has a fragile heart why would he do all of these ? I don't know if I will continue talking because it seems like everyone think I'm lying so there's no point.
:/
