The worker // FREENBECKY

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BECKY POV

FAMILY GROUPCHAT

Becky; This has pushed the line, have you seen why I've kept my distance from you guys? all fucking insane

Dad: we love you becca

Becky: no you don't, I'm seriously never ever going to be part of your lives ever again, I'm getting my passport sent back to me next week and you guys will not even have my new number

Richie: LOL we are family it's not possible, no matter what happens you r a Armstrong and your not destroying the family name by home wrecking

Becky: I promise you all, never again

Mom: over a married woman?

Becky: over my happiness, I need to be away from you guys for my own mental health, I've never lost so many brain cells by being around you people

Mom: you people? We are your family  becbec

Becky; don't call me that

Mom: I've called you that since you've been a baby

Becky: only important people in my life get to call me a loving nickname, you are the worse one your supposed to be my mother

Mom: Really Becky? your just angry you'll calm down, it felt nice spending time with you in England, You never visit us

Becky: I know consider me dead to you

Richie; LOL how dramatic

Becky; dramatic? you left me in another fucking country

Mom: I love you more than anything Becky we are looking out for you, you'll thank us later, that Freen has manipulated you and played mind games with you and apparently she's moved on already so

Becky; I'm not with Freen so she can fucking move on, you destroyed my once chance of happiness so don't worry

Richie; what do you mean? She left u that quick?

Becky; fuck off, all of yous fuck off.

*leaves groupchat*

I've been here for a whole week now.

I sit on the edge of the bed as I sob my eyes out, I've always felt lonely, always went to my doctors appointments alone, I've lived alone, but now Freen's entered my life, I don't think I could see her go, I don't want to be alone anymore, she's become a necessity in my life.

"Becky, you haven't eaten since yesterday please eat something" my grandma says as she walks in with a tray full of food.

"I'm not hungry grandma" I sob into my hands

"I can't let you starve yourself Becky just eat a little bit" my grandmother tries to calm me down.

"Leave it there" I say to her, I don't want her to beg me to eat I rather her just leave.

"You know when I married your grandad he had another child as well before me, but I tried so much for that child to like me for the sake of my marriage and my happiness, but the child treated me like shit, he'd throw the food I cooked for him, he would make up lies and say I've hit him to make your grandad and us argue all the time, and that kid made me develop so much dislike for him, and your grandad he always prioritised his son over me, I felt so jealous, because that kid wasn't nice to me, he wasn't my own Becky"

"Riley's different you every other child, I spent 2 hours on a phone call with her and even that wasn't enough I need to care for her grandma" I continue sobbing into my hand

Why doesn't anyone understand?

"What if Freen prioritises and puts riley before you, what would you do then?"

"I'd be fucking mad if she didn't put riley first, I'm not selfish, I don't need constant attention I'm not insecure, I love that little girl grandma, that's all there is to it & IRIN DOESN'T DESERVE HER" i sob harder this time as my breath becomes heavier.

My grandma sighs as she stands up and leaves the room.

Ofcourse she left. Thank god leave me alone. They all act as if they know Freen and riley personally.

Freen: I miss you

Becky: thought you didn't wanna talk to me

Freen: I can't live without you

Becky: I'm going to sleep

Freen: don't go sleep please, call me, I miss your voice, I'm sorry bec, I really am, I was upset that I've always got bad luck, I thought I was so lucky when I married Irin and then shit happened and then I finally found the best thing that has ever happened to me, and people are trying to fucking ruin it, I end up alone at the end and I'm terrified of it

Becky: I told you that I was here for you, I'm not running away and you didn't believe me, but you wanna believe all the bad shit Irin's told you, Freen it's like she lives in your brain

Freen: how could you say that? You live on my fucking mind all the time, yeah she's said shit to me that's made me insecure but it isn't easy to let go of it

Becky; I don't want to be in a relationship were there's a loss of power, I want us to be able to go through hurdles but we aren't strong enough are we

Freen: Don't piss me off, your not going anywhere okay I was mad and stupid but you mean the fucking world to me, don't let that break us up, I'm sorry for being insecure I'll work on that

Becky: that's not the point Freen, you deadass haven't spoken to me in a week and when you decide you miss me you message me?? I've been crying here and starving because I've been so heart broken, honestly I need to sleep, I don't wanna deal with this anymore

Freen: Let me explain myself just call me Becky

Before I could respond my grandma walks back in with my passport in her hands

"Here you go, your brother slipped it to me before he left and said to give it to you in a month but separation won't even help this" my grandma states as she places the passport next to me and then picks up the plate and feeds me with the spoon.

I just sob even more, I feel like a broken hearted baby but I need comfort and I'm glad my grandma is doing that.