MARILYN

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Oh, Marilyn, our love is bright and all the stars are jealous and valuable as nobody can touch.

Your eyes on far away and you are playing with your ring. And you muttering some song and you don't care about the floors that wet with sea water and you just sitting with your white amazing dress.

How much can I be more valuable, Marilyn? Everything is beautiful and sunset in your eyes. How can I feel I won't die? You are only-one reason of all this things, Marilyn. You gave me immortality. And I know that I'll get life again. I know, every time I look your eyes, I'll get life, Marilyn. I can be endless.

When you turn your head and look me, "I love you and it is true." I said.

Like it is only truth of world...

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Might that the windiest nights of last days, Marilyn. I guess you don't even remember that. You annoyed that your hairs are flying and dammed.

So, I stared at you.

We smelt the seawater's salt smell. The old way that near the beach, laying in front of us and pine tree's branches hit the other branches, birds are flying with confusion. But middle of the tumult, you was my only focal point. Always be.

We couldn't see the stars. I guess, it was because the rain coming down. I was special as that the stars we couldn't watch, Marilyn. I could be invisible. I could hide behind you.

I don't know how everything change immediately, but it doesn't matter is.

Oh, Marilyn, I almost forgot, I think most important event was when we played 'Have You Ever?' game, you won with distinction. I remember every detail even I was drunk at the end of the night, Marilyn. I remember that you kissed me on my open mouth. I remember your hand that inside of my hair.

"Have you ever stolen a car?" you asked. I think this question was made you winner.

I said, yes. With voice that coming from far away.

"I know, I know!" I remember you screamed with cheerfully like you was a little child, Marilyn. I hope, God let this laugh will be the laugh that the angel has who will meet me.

Few questions later, you were winner again. Bottle that we held generally was on my hand. You didn't even need to drink, and I was glad, it was made me happy.

And then I asked;

"Marilyn, were you serious when you told me love is a game that projected skillfully for me?"

You wait little. I guessed you tried to remember this moment. You couldn't Marilyn. You couldn't remember the ring you've lost because of me and argument that I felt stupid because I told you, you preferred your friend to me. This moment, everything changes to blank. Suddenly you put a question forward to parry me-had million meaning and locked me.

"Tell me, Am I the best girl to be fall in love?"

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I think I decided something, Marilyn.

I will continue to write the events after that day, to this old notebook. We can only make stay alive our lives. We can only save them, that way, Marilyn.

My power is not enough to make you live. You are only power. Think about sun. Everything has to spin around you, you're all the light, all the power and I can't touch it. I'm only freak one that spinning around you, Marilyn.